Safe || j.b.

Chapter 9

Justin's POV

I've been sitting here in the hospital for awhile, I woke up about five hours after the crash. The crash was two days ago and Scarlett hasn't woken up yet, I'm starting to get really worried.

When I first woke up after the crash I was told I had broken my jaw and I had to get stitches right above my eyebrow. Scarlett on the other hand has a broken leg and has a huge brain injury.

I've been beating my self up over this for the last two days, it's all my fault that she's hurt. I was just trying to get her back, I mean she was never really mine but at the same time I felt like she was.

What if she doesn't wake up? I won't be able to forgive my self, I have to think positive. When she wakes up, and she will wake up. Soon. (A/N Not Justin's version of soon either ;))

When she wakes up I'm taking her on a date, I'll get her a gift. I'll tell her how I feel about her, I'll sing to her. She'll fall asleep in my arms and then maybe it'll start raining then we can kiss in the rain.

Like our first kiss at my house, I remember it like it was yesterday. She was leaning in and our lips brushed, I remember being frustrated about the thunder scaring her.

But looking back now I laugh at it, how cute she was. Then I tried kissing her agin but that thunder storm was being stubborn. Finally we walked inside and kissed, the feeling she gave me was just, unexplainable.

I know how weird it is for a guy to be saying they feel sparks or get butterflies, but hell she gave me both. It's something that I haven't felt with anyone and I know everyone would say I'm crazy for falling so quickly for just some girl.

Thing is, she isn't just some girl to me. She's this really shy yet adorably nerdy girl. I wouldn't change a thing about her, sure she has flaws but their so small and why would I change those flaws?

Then she wouldn't be herself, she wouldn't be Scarlett. Thinking of all of this caused a pain in my chest, I missed her smile, her laugh, her.

I fresh tear fell down my cheek, one after the other. The room was silent besides my quiet sobs, Scarlett was in the room next to mine. I made sure to tell the doctors to tell me when she woke up.

I wanted to be the first person she sees, not her friends, not her dad, but me. Her friends have been stoping by to check up on her but she never woke up.

I don't know where her dads been but he hasn't came to see her yet. I know they called him though, I'm happy yet pissed that he never showed up.

Pissed because he didn't show up for his hurt daughter that has no one! Scratch that, she has me, Kate, and Riley. I was happy that he never showed because that would just cause Scar stress and pain.

Knowing that he hurt her made me angry as fuck, knowing he caused her tears made me wanna kill the basterd.

But the thing is, I know I've caused her tears to.

It hurt like hell knowing I was the reason she was upset, I was no better than her dad. Well I never harmed her like he did, I never laid a finger on her u less it was in a passionate way.

I know I get angry and say terrible things to her sometimes, and I hate my self for it. Because not only do I not mean what I said, but what I say isn't true at all.

I like Scarlett a lot, and when I said I didn't have time for her, that was a huge lie. I just couldn't tell her where I was, I hate hiding this from her but how do I tell her something like this?

That day we fought, when I left her the day before because of my emergency, she said she had an emergency to.

I saw a burn and bruises on her but thought she just hurt herself cooking or I don't know. But her dad, he beat her when she came home. He beat her because I wasn't there to protect her.