Trust No Man

Take Me All The Way

~1 Month Later~

ELIZABETH'S P.O.V.

In the month that we've been together. Xavier has taught me to trust others and open up. Me and Xavier made it official. We are officially a couple. We visited the lake a few more times. Our relationship looks promising. It might be my first real relationship. Nick and Xavier have become close. Nick's happy to have a guy friend. Xavier likes that he can ask Nick questions about me that he can't ask me himself. It's nice. We all go out to dinner sometimes. We also spent the Fourth of July at the lake. I visit Xavier at his job and watched him play. It was beautiful. The way he played the guitar and the way his voice sang was like silk. I told him how good he was. But he says he's more interested in college. I myself have been receiving orders for my photographing. Xavier has been sponsoring me during his sets. Mentioning my great work. I also take some shifts as a show dancer.

Today I decided to go surprise visit Xavier at work. I walk in and wait at the entrance. His job place is pretty classy. If I do say so myself. I watched him. He eventually found me and smiled. His boss was watching next to me. "He's great huh?" I whisper. "Yes, yes he is. Too bad he's leaving next month." His boss whispered back. "What do you mean leaving?" I asked. "He's only here for two months. He's going back to New York then he's off to college. Heard he got into Harvard. Such a shame. He has really been bringing in the customers. They like his music." His boss answered. Xavier smiled at me again this time I walked out. He watched as I left in rage. I called Nick to pick me up. I waited on the curb. I was wearing a blue plaid button up shirt, daisy duke shorts, and cow girl boots. I had my hair out and loosely curled for the country effect and a matching brown cowgirl hat. It was the middle of the summer and it was hot. Nick was taking a while to get here. The cafe was a little far from the hotel. Nick was probably wondering why I called so early after he just dropped me off. A few minutes later Xavier came threw the doors with a concerned look on his face. He must have finished his set. "What's wrong?" he asked wrapping me in a hug from behind. No matter how much I enjoyed it I had to refuse, the only way to show I was angered by this new information that he withheld from me. I shove him off and take a step forward, my back still to him. "It's too hot for hugging." I say coldly. ''What's upsetting you?" He asked. He looked hurt from me shutting him out. I'm hurt to though,he did the same thing to me. "When were you going to tell me?" I ask bluntly. "Tell you what?" He asked. "That you were leaving." I finally say. "What? No ones leaving." He tried to pretend and grabbed my hand. I snatched it away."Then how are you attending Harvard University next month?" I ask sarcastically. "Oh." He said. He actually lead himself to believe the summer would never end. I began crying. "Why would you make me trust you!" I banged against his chest and he held my wrist "Then leave me!" I stopped fighting and kept crying. He continued to hold me wrists. "You know I'm messed up." He let go of my wrist. Since I wasn't fighting it anymore I sank into his chest. He held me tenderly. "I know. It's just for a moment everything was perfect. We were perfect. I forgot about leaving. You just make me so happy." He explained. "But what am I supposed to do when you leave. You'll be on your way to college and I'll be here. Alone." I muttered against his shirt. "You won't be alone." He said. He began stroking my back. "Yes I will." I say. I continue to cry. "No you won't. You'll have me."he says. Lies. Are they all he can tell? "If you want you could move with me." He offered. I took my face from the middle of his chest and looked up. "Really?" I asked. "Really."he confirmed. "Xavier!" Called his boss. It was time for him to go to work. He left me with a kiss on the forehead and a 'see you later'. Eventually, Nick pulled up. I got in the car. "You okay?" He asked. I explained everything to him from when he dropped me off to when he picked me up. "So your going?" He asked me once we were inside the suite. "I don't know. I can't just leave you." I say. "I'll be fine. I just want you to be happy." He said. "Well can you come to?" I ask. He thought it over. "I suppose it would only be fair." He said. I jumped up and hugged him. My brother truly was the greatest. We both know that even if me and Xavier have only been together for a month, it's the happiest I've been for years. I found someone I'm confident in. Someone who understands me. Somehow Xavier had opened me up. He knows me now. He also loved me for me and all my imperfections. Could I just let him go? More importantly could he just let me go? I hope not. He began meaning so much to me in so little time. My mother always said that if I wanted something I had to work for it. I want Xavier. I just want to keep what we have. If anything I could aways return home. I just didn't want to go because I know he would be there. And I'm not talking about Xavier or Nick.

Nothing was ever permanent is all I've learned. I thought I'd have my mom forever. Then she got sick. Her kidneys failing slowly. I cherished everyday with her even before she was sick. She was my only parent to stay. She loved me. And I loved her. I miss her so much. I could really use her in a time like this. Of course she would tell me to go. To live. To follow my heart. But it's not the same. I want her to tell me. I want to hear her voice. She would like Xavier. He was everything I could hope for. Only he wanted to leave.

"Elizabeth!" Nick called out.

"What!"I scream. Nothing. Typical. He knew I would come. I left my room and entered the living room. Standing there was Xavier. Guilt all over his face. "I'll leave you two alone." Nick excused himself. I sat on the couch. Xavier sat with me. I leaned on him. "It's a big step." I say. "It is. But you have long legs and I have big feet. We'll make it." He said. I laughed a little. "Why were you so mad when you found out I was leaving?" He asked me. "Because you know who I am. You should have known how I would feel. I care about you and trust you. It hurt me to think you would just leave me." I say. "I could never just leave you. I know how it would effect you. Especially if I did it. That would crush you. I couldn't hurt you like that." He said. I snuggled up more into his side. "Thank you. I thought I was going to have to have Nick gut you." I tease. "That would have been a shame. Since you've become so close." I say. He laughs. I drift asleep listening to his steady heart beat.

Maybe moving wouldn't be so bad. I could get my photography business spreading. Especially in New York. Concrete jungle, where dreams are made of. Maybe mine will come true. Maybe me and Xavier will stay together. Maybe when he finishes college and gets a steady job we'll settle down and start a family. A dream I thought I'd never see in reality. I think such nice thoughts while I fall into a deep sleep.

I wake up and Xavier is gone. Probably left to his own suite. When I get up and enter my room the first thing I see are luggage bags. Who's were these? This was definitely my room because my favorite book was still open to its current page on my dresser. I feel arms wrap around me from behind. I feel someone's breath on me. Then whisper in my ear,"How was your nap sleeping beauty?" It was Xavier. He nuzzled his face in my neck. I held his hands that were on my stomach. I smiled. I liked it when he treated me gently. I turn around and wrap my arms around his neck. "Babe, what's all this stuff in my room?" I ask kindly. "It's just my stuff. If we plan on living together we should try it out before we make any big moves."he says. "Okay, but let me put everything away. You'll just ruin my organization. Then I'll go crazy." I say. "Your already crazy." He said. "What?" I ask quickly. "Your crazy alright. Crazy about me." He said. I kissed him on the lips. I loved his corny little jokes. After I kissed him I said,"Yes I am." After that I started sorting his stuff. He kept me company. Laid on my bed and talked to me. By the time I finished I was tired. I jumped on my back on the side next to him. "I didn't know a guy could have more stuff than me." I joke. We both laughed. I was exhausted. I moved closer to him and laid my head on his shoulder he wraps his arm around me. I leaned into his chest and smelled him. He smelled the best. We stayed like that for a while before we both drifted asleep.