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My Story 1: Gone (143)

Gone is a short story about how a girl have been wronged by boys so many times to the point where she can't take it anymore and stops believing in love because every times she loves someone, he end up breaking her heart. This is her story.

I had a great life. Well it wasn't all great, but I had someone that made me love my life. He wasn't all perfect looking, but I loved him the way he was. I didn't want him to change. He told me all these sweet things to me and I fell for him more and more. He told me things like how he wants us to last. Also how we were a power couple who didn't care what other people thought. We'd just laugh at them. There were times where we would fight and be stubborn about it. I would always feel guilty. I find that a problem, but I didn't care. I just wanted him to be happy even if it meant that I'm not going to be happy. In my head, I actually thought we were going to last for a year, but I was wrong.

He wanted us to last for a year, but when that day came, that want never came true. I couldn't do it anymore. Our first problem is when we just started dating too. He had another girlfriend that I never knew about. He told me that he was planning on telling me, but I doubt that day would have come. It hurt, but I gave him another chance. Our second problem was when he never told me that him and one of my friends had dated. He broke up with me to go be with my friend, but came back to me because he so called loved me. When I found out, it hurt because that's what my ex did to me before. He broke up with me to be with another girl and now he regrets it.

We had another problem where I thought I assumed that he had feelings for his ex again. He was so mad and like I said, I felt guilty. After that, we had a problem where I found out that he had feelings for his ex and that drove me crazy. I wished that I hadn't felt guilty at all. He lied to me again and told me that he was going to tell me. All I could think about was his promise to me on how he was going to tell me everything and how that promise had already been broken. I was just too blind to see it. Blinded by love. More problems I had that he didn't know about was his ex. The things that I know he is doing with her spirals around in my head and then I soon realized that I'm in an endless cycle where his ex is the problem.

I wanted him to end it because the only way I could've ending it was the way I did not want to go. I wanted out the cycle, but foolishly I stayed all because I loved him. That is when yesterday happened. Him and his friend were doing to be honest on everyone. Earlier that day, I was already upset that he never told me that he went out with his ex multiple times. He only told me once and my friend thought it was only twice so I already had break-up on my mind because I was tired of his lies. Well when he did a tbh on his ex, it was all about how they had a bond and how they made each other laugh and how it was a good relationship. I was torn by that.

I didn't know what to do at that point. Then the truth came out. He told me that he wasn't very loyal to me. How he was flirting with other girl and how he went to the movies with one girl, but he swore nothing happened. He told me that everything he said to me was true, but this was puppy love and not real love. I respect that he told me, but I was heartbroken by the fact that he lied to me. About everything. Loyalty and Honesty. He told me a story on how it was hard for him to fall in love because his last girl cheated on him and now he has done the same to me. I was so mad, but mostly hurt. I couldn't do it anymore. I gave it a day to think about this whole situation and I've decided that we were not meant to be. Yeah. We broke up. To finally get my mind off of everything, I wrote this short story on my life:

>After yesterday, I realized how I can never trust a boy no matter how much I want to. Now I know that most boys just lie to you, use you, and also try to change you. Why would I change myself for a boy? I like who I am. Sometimes I wonder why I'm still here with you if that's the case. They're right. I don't know what love is, but I know how it hurts inside. I know what it feels to have my heart ripped out of my chest and stabbed by a dagger called...unloyal. I've had it done to me many times. Every boy has a story:

"my girlfriend cheated on me and she hurt me and broke my heart"

or whatever their story is. It's all based on one thing. How they don't like unloyal girls but...you did the same to me. You became unloyal and hurt me. You told me lies that I actually was stupid to believe. Why? I thought you didn't like it or did you lie to me?

They know how loyal I am. They know how much trust I put into them. They always take advantage. Always. They hurt me over and over again until I get tired of it. Then the tears flow down my face with the feeling of anger, sadness, and regret. They play with my heart like it's some kind of toy and then they accidentally break it because it's fragile. I feel like I'm at the edge of a cliff and they are all waiting for me to jump. Each time they hurt me, I get closer and closer to my death. The thoughts in my head will take over because the pain is too strong. It consumes me until one day I fall and then I'm...gone...<

That was Gone. That was based on a true story. Not a happy ending for anybody. Hope you liked it and if you have any stories that you want to share, then send me them. I'll be happy to show your story.