My Story

My Story 4: Her Heart

Of course my story doesn't end. It continues and gets worse by the minutes. I now realize how much life hates me physically and mentally, but it must be my fault...right?

When boys see her, all they see is "play me", "mess with my emotions", "lie to me", "be dishonest", "cheat on me and use me." Because that's what they see, they do it. They still see it to this day. Now what I see is "broken child", "was once happy, but now what is happiness", "no love", and etc. She's never herself anymore. Because that's what they saw, they changed her by force.

Her heart goes cold with a huge wall impossible to break down because she built it with trust issues. Can you imagine how she feels when he says he has feelings for his ex? Can you imagine how she feels when he doesn't act the way he did before when he actually cared? Can you imagine how she FELT  when everything that was told to her was a lie? Can you imagine how she felt when...she has given up on the relationship, you, and herself? She has a heart. Imagine a female giving you her heart and you taking it and shattering it.

I hate to see her cry over a situation that could've been avoided. I hate for her to scream inside her head and hide away all that she is feeling. I hate that they give her anything to hide inside. I never see her smile as often because when she does, it is taken away by a person who hurts her or who has hurt her before. I don't like when they take advantage thinking everything will be a-okay with no consequence.

She doesn't like to think that way. All those bad, sad, hurtful thoughts to herself. She tears her own spirit down because of you. She does all those things to herself to be free from the pain and stress you cause her to have. She asks GOD to give her what she deserves and is disappointed by the results every time. Will things ever go back to the way they were before or will everything repeat as she gets older and she takes matters into her own hands? Which is her life? She deserves so much more. SO MUCH MORE!

Remember that a person can only take so much. HOW MUCH can she take before matters really do go into her own hands? How much? They do NOT care. They will keep pushing and pushing until they regret for pushing so hard. Now it will be on their hands. The blame doesn't go on her for doing it. Ask yourself. IS IT WORTH IT?

*This may be the last story to My Story. I know that some of you may think 'She has too many problems' or 'We don't care' or other negative thoughts, but they some may think this was deep and cried. I mean I did to, a little, from reading this over. So many memories I wish to forget, but I now realize that it was only the beginning...*