In The Eye Of My Mind

2. Point

All sounds faded away, all voices were mute. Colors were molten into the chaotic monochromatic symphony. Everything around me meant nothing, like a blurry pitch black painting. My eyes stopped blinking, they were only watching, i wish i had no eyes.

The gigantic monster of foul agonies, the darkness manifested and made real by nothing by the insanities of our collective mind. A hand extending towards her... striking her down, hitting her soft milky rose cheek. It started with an argument, i watched and listened silently as this unappreciative fool massacred her dignity, the girl i secretly loved. I always wondered why the ones we truly want, the hearts that are meant for us, always end up with someone else? But the answer was not out there, it was not anywhere.

Their argument picked up heat, twisting the metallic burning rods penetrating my heart. I could not see her face, her galactic deep eyes. I was sitting at my desk, they were not too far away. She tried to remain silent, i saw her tremble with fear and anger, wanting to tell him how wrong he was, how bad he treated her.

When i first came here, they were already together. I tried to prevent my heart from falling, from being branded with her name, but i could not fight what was fated.

She finally broke the silence, she screamed and told him that she hated him. Truth is finally spoken, the masks are finally fallen. But for a monster, it's being unleashed. His hand rose so high before striking down against her poor innocent flesh. She lost her balance, my heart lost its humanity. Against all my desires, i didn't stand, i didn't rush to her, i just stood up slowly. His eyes shifted to me, daring me to come close, challenging me. I was a small fry in the face of this giant. Little did he know, i have my own mask to break...

I pulled my tie and almost tore it off. Walking slowly towards him, my eyes darting at his, my heart already beating madly. I shifted my gaze down towards her, she lost the will to stand up, she simply kept her hands over her face, covering up her loss of courage and dignity. He was breathing rapidly, his foul breath like a storm approaching from afar. I finally spoke "I apologize" firm voice, monotone and dead serious. He started laughing so hard, he couldn't beloeve that i said that.

I stopped his laughter with a cold thundering tone "I apologize for the pain you'll be suffering" he could hardly see through my swift movement, i reached towards his face, trying to take him by surpire.

The sound of breaking bones is horrifying, pray that you'd never hear it... and pray harder you never experience it... crackling down, my arm was shattered to pieces down to the bone. Everything i have imagined inside my mind, all the times i thlught about how a fight would go against him or anyone else.. they meant nothing. He was physically superior, much faster and more capable than me. An iron wall has fallen, crushing me down with it. He already took hold of my arm and with few forceful hits, broke it at 3 places i could count. The pain rushing through my brain was soul numbing. My voice was already lost, i couldn't even moan in pain. I let him have my arm, my eyes were still dead serious somehow, looking into his amused ones.

"I really apologize" i now spoke to her, her teary red eyes were looking at me, at the pathetic man trying to help her, failing to make a difference. I managed to draw a smile as i used up all my strength to push forward. My broken arm swayed along, acting as a connecting point to him. He was now taken by surprise, by this pathetic thing pushing him forward. The horror reached his heart and reflected onto his eyes. Screams rose around me, his voice was crying for help.

Shattered glass shards fell along, remind me of my own glass statue inside my heart.

The air was cold, as refreshing as her presence.

The sun set was as beautiful as her sparkeling smiles towards me when our eyes met.

The screaming man held tightly to my broken arm, stupid.. we were both falling off the 8th floor, no way we could survive.

I didn't really known if i was mad, or if this was my shining light at the end of the tunnel... but i saw her smile, her crying eyes, her voice calling my name.

As we came closer to the ground, i felt the fluffy warmth of a bed.

The light was strong, white walls with white lights.

Her perfume was in the air... i could always tell.

Pain pulsed through my body, the thought of her near me me made it fade away.

I didn't know where my death began, where my dreams have ended...

Whether i was still alive or living my death forever as my hell...

I truly...Lo...