Oneshots

Onimikeler: The Things I Deserve

Onimikeler Oneshot: The Things I Deserve

Characters: Onity, Mike, Tyler

Plot: Mike has a bad episode. 

Note: Based off the song "The Things I deserve" by Maika

NOTE: I'm not quite sure i've never actually tagged anything as triggering but it's depressing and sad and it's a written representation of how Mike's mind works. Don't worry though, happy ending with a message for everyone from me. 

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   He didn't know what set it off this time. He tried so hard to trace back his steps in his head and figure out what thought had done this to him, but nothing came from his attempts. It didn't really matter in the end though, because Mike found he couldn't stay cool and sit still at his desk at work anymore. He'd excused himself to an early lunch time quietly and sat in his car. 

It's only half way through the work day, he thought. He couldn't bail out now.

He sat in the front seat of his car, shaking. Thinking. Tears in his eyes. 

He's so weak, jeez. He's a grown man he shouldn't be feeling this way. Men don't fall apart like this. At least, that's what society says. 

He pulled his knees up to his chest and glanced around, hoping nobody would see him in that moment. 

Ugh, he can't believe that he lets society play with his emotions so easily. Tyler may get angry but he never lets himself fall apart this bad over something someone else thinks. He never starts to attack himself. He never blames himself. 

He is so much stronger and so much more of a man then you are. 

And Onity is so calm and could stand before the worst of humans and contain himself as though nothing were bothering him. He could stand before people who've raped, murdered, tortured, and keep back his rage. 

Mike can't do that. He is so weak.

Mike couldn't help but cry as these thoughts beat him down. They were not new to him, but they hurt worse and worse every time they attacked. 

Mike is so weak. 

Mike means nothing. 

Mike shouldn't even be ali-

The phone in his pocket buzzed. 

-ve. 

   Mike didn't bother with the phone. It was some text. He continued to sit there and think horrible things about himself. He continued to rip himself apart mentally. Once the train started it couldn't be stopped. He was only able to pull himself out of this deadly ride when he thought he saw someone and began to question if he should try to drive somewhere. Maybe actually get lunch if this was his break. 

Maybe he should try to talk to someone. 

Onity and Tyler did tell you that if this happened again that you needed to text them, because they know you can't keep your voice together when you talk during this. 

Did they really say that? 

Yeah, they did. 

But right now, it's hard to believe they'd want to waste their time with you. 

But they love you. 

Tyler is busy at work and he could lose his job if he's caught doing less important things. Onity is probably in the middle of something too. He keeps himself busy at home and with friends and family, despite not working.