Nothing is For Sure

Chapter 16- Love Is An Open Door

It's been a week since Louis tried to commit suicide and since Niall asked Zayn to help him with a difficult task. Zayn hasn't told anyone what Niall asked him to do. Liam is oblivious. Louis has been going to therapy but no one is seeing any physical, outward improvement. The therapist says he's getting better, but Liam doesn't believe that.

He watches him at football and he can tell that on the pitch is the only time when he is even a little bit like his old self. It's hurting the entire family. Niall doesn't want to do anything because he's in nappies and it hurts to move his legs. The doctors say he's not going to live much longer so Liam is no longer worried about school. It's the end of the year anyway and Niall doesn't have any exams. Zayn and Liam graduated over the weekend so they stay home with Niall during the day.

Brooke is staying in the hospital for a while as she is getting worse. It means Niall no longer sees her during chemo. He tried to visit her sometimes but Niall still is really lonely. Most of his friends don't talk to him anymore and he doesn't know why. He's lying in bed, unable to get up on his own, texting Brooke. Liam and Zayn are both still asleep so he has to wait until they wake up so he can get up. Zayn has stayed with them for a few days to help Liam out. Especially with Louis being so unstable.

Sometimes, like this morning, Harry will come into Niall's room and lay with him until he has to get to school. Harry's head is on the pillow next to Niall.

"Hey Ni?" Niall turns his head.

"Yeah Haz?"

"Do you miss Brookie?" Niall nods. "I do too." Harry nods. They lay there for a few more minutes and Niall gets very uncomfortable. He can't control when he goes to the bathroom so that leads to him wetting his nappy during the night. Last night he messed it for the first time and now it's awful that he has to wait for his brother to get him.

Louis comes in and lifts him out of bed a minute or two later. It surprises Niall as Louis never gets him up.

"Good morning bug," Louis says, putting him on his hip like a two-year-old. It's obviously Louis's best day he's had since he tried to kill himself.

"Hey Lou." Louis brings him to the bathroom and lays him down so his head is on the bathmat.

"I'm guessing you need a change?" Niall nods and a blush creeps into his cheeks. He doesn't want Louis to see that he messed the nappy. He would rather have Liam. Zayn walks in right before Louis pulls off Niall's pants.

"Morning Niall. Hey Lou! You gonna change Niall?" Louis shrugs.

"Can you do it, actually? I haven't done a nappy change since our cousins came over four years ago. I'm gonna go get dressed for school." Louis leaves and Zayn kneels down where Louis was.

"What's wrong Niall?" Zayn asks gently. Niall's super uptight today. He swiftly takes Niall's pajama bottoms off and then he can tell what the problem is. "Love it's Ok. Don't worry about it." He pulls the nappy off and performs the change quickly. Niall hates being changed but he obviously can't do it himself. "All done bug. What do you want to do today?"

"I have a Wish meeting at 11:00. Maybe after we can do something."

"Sure. What do you want to do?" Niall shrugs. "We have to run to the store at some point, I was going to stay with you here but you can come if you want."

"Yeah sure!" Zayn looks him up and down.

"Are you going to walk today then?"

"I dunno. I'll see. It would be easier. Can we go downstairs?" Zayn helps him up and they slowly walk down the stairs. Louis is helping Harry with breakfast and Liam is packing lunches for Harry and Louis.