Nothing is For Sure

Chapter 25- Chain Breaker

Sorry for the filler

The family was back from the beach five days later. Everyone had tanner skin and smiles on their faces. Niall had arguably the best week of his life. In just five days, he became a surf master. All five boys had benefitted from the trip, everyone was relaxed and not worried about cancer.

Unfortunately, Niall has chemo today. Harry and Louis are going to go to Harry's therapy and Zayn and Liam are taking Niall to chemo together. It's his first long chemo without Brooke, he had one the other week, but it was only a short one and she never came to those so he couldn't tell.

Zayn packed a bag with games, headphones, his computer, and films. Niall's chemo is going to be four hours long today and he's dreading it. There's no way to sleep through that.

"Ni you ready to go?" Liam yells.

"Yeah, I'm coming!" Niall comes down the stairs and follows Liam and Zayn out to the car. He's carrying his sweatshirt, even though it's the end of June. Zayn has a blanket packed as well.

"Ni, are you Ok that both of us are coming?" Niall nods, continuing to look out the window wordlessly. Liam shuts up and keeps driving. They reach the hospital and all three boys get out. Zayn grabs the bag and puts it over his shoulder, following the boys inside. He's never gone to chemo before.

They reach the oncology wing and Niall follows Katherine to his bed. Zayn and Liam sit as Niall gets hooked up to the many tubes and wires and monitors. Once she leaves, Niall sighs and his eyes start to slip shut.

"Liam," he calls out quietly.

Liam looks up from his phone and says, "Yeah baby?"

"I can't sleep. Too uncomfortable. Can we watch a film?" Liam nods and pulls out the few that they brought. Niall chooses Forrest Gump. They put it into his computer and all three boys sit together on the bed.

"You comfortable?" Zayn asks. Niall snuggles into his side and nods. They arrange the lines and tubes so no one can pull them and start the film. Liam steps out a few minutes later because Louis is calling, leaving Zayn and Niall on the bed. Niall's already half asleep, leaning against Zayn.

Katherine comes in to check on them about 45 minutes in and Niall's asleep. "Everything going Ok?" she whispers. Zayn has paused the movie and he is scrolling on his phone.

"Yeah. He was feeling pretty sick so he fell asleep to avoid getting sick." She nods and writes something down on her clipboard.

"Alright well let me know if he wakes up and gets sick. Liam is on the phone crying, by the way. He's about to come back but..." she just shakes her head a bit before shooting Zayn a sad smile and then leaving.

Zayn sits next to Niall, confused and trying to make sense of the whole thing. He doesn't get long to think though, before Niall wakes up and reaches for the bucket next to the bed. Zayn helps him sit and lean over the bucket. He gags a couple times and then his stomach finally lets up and he gets sick.

"Zayn, help me..." he cries as he gets sick. Zayn slips his hand under Niall's shirt and rubs at the sweaty skin. Niall stops getting sick and lays back against Zayn.

"What can I do for you babe? Hmm?" Niall shrugs and presses his face into Zayn's neck. He moans as soon as he moves, sitting back up. "Gonna be sick again love?" Niall nods and bites his lip, obviously tired of being sick. "Come on, I've got ya."

He leans over the bucket again, sighs, and starts crying. The crying triggers vomiting and they repeat the process of getting sick three more times before Niall's body gives out and he falls asleep, exhausted. Liam still hasn't come back and Zayn is worried. If he was crying, something's up.

Another thirty minutes passes and Niall wakes up. Liam isn't back. Niall and Zayn start playing a game of cards as he is feeling better now. Katherine comes back in and nods, seeing Niall awake.

"Have you seen Liam?" Zayn asks.

"Yeah, he's on the phone still." She shrugs and leaves. By now, Zayn is nervous. What could he possibly be talking about? And who is he talking to? He tries to push it to the back of his mind and just play cards with Niall.

"Zayn, it's your turn," Niall says gently. Zayn snaps back to the game and sees Niall looking at him sadly.

"Sorry bug."

"Have you thought about what I asked you?"

"Yes baby. I have. A lot actually."

"Oh," Niall says.

"Why bug?" Zayn asks quietly.

"Just wondering." Zayn knows that there's more than that and he nudges Niall. "I want to go through with it. This week." Zayn sighs. There's no way that he can do it, but he can't not do it.

"What do you have in mind?" He's afraid to hear the answer.

"Well see, I take that trioxide on Friday to help prep me for chemo. An overdose will do the trick. Instead of Liam giving it to me, can you? Then I tell you how much to pour and you let me take it. That way, it's all my doing." Niall looks at Zayn with big eyes, begging him.

"Just like that, you're giving up?"

"Zayn... I thought you were in on this."

"I am. But are you positive?" Zayn asks. Niall nods. "Alright. Bug I'm not sure why I'm doing this but on Friday, I'm gonna miss you so much." Tears come to Zayn's eyes as he thinks about a life without Niall. Niall must sense what he's thinking as he starts to cry.

"I'm sorry Zayn. I really am," he manages to choke out as he cries. Zayn holds him and rubs his back.

"Don't be sorry baby. I understand. I love you." Niall cries himself to sleep in Zayn's arms. As soon as Zayn is starting to drift off, Liam comes back in. He's crying and Zayn wonders if he's overheard their conversation. "What is it Liam?" Zayn puts Niall on the bed and gets up to hug his boyfriend. "Is something wrong?"

Liam just nods wordlessly and squeezes his eyes shut. Zayn rubs his back and waits fro him to speak. "They're sending Harry to an autistic boarding school!"