Levi X Reader(why...me?)

Im happy but why her?

Your pov

After the incident with me and levi, i went to my bedroom and talked with petra before i was consumed by sleep. The next day i went to levi's office and knocked, as usall he asked for name and buisness. I awnsered with the same old "(l/n), sir". "Come in", i walked in the door to see levi with petra in his arms. Petra looked at me with wide eyes, "oh my god, petra im so happy for you!" I said putting a convensing smile on to hide my hurt. "Tch, brat begin cleaning my office after training" levi said with a stotic expression. "Yes sir", i said and went to training to take anger out. I walked up to a titan dummy and used my gear to get to the nape of the neck. Instead of using my fleash cutting blades i used a rusted pocket knife that my father used to carry with him. The blade was rusted red with blood stains with a sharp edge. I used it to tear the nape of the neck over and over again untill i broke through the wood at the end. I decided to sit in a tree at the second  to tallest branch that would support my weight. I took the knife and cut my arms and wrists. I silently cried as blood seethed through the cuts. I hear a branch break near me and i used my gear to menuver through the trees, i look behind me and see a person. I started to go faster and faster, running out of fule. I unhooked the gear from my body and ran as fast as i can until the person was no longer following me. I was finshed with training today. I ran to my room and took a shower, my cuts burning. I wienced in pain as i cried at the pain i felt. I heard a knock on the door and i put my pjs' on. Tonight i had a long black sleave shirt on and a black pair of shorts on. I opened the door to reveal petra. Her face light up as i walked out, "(y/n) (y/n)! Guess what i have the greatest news!..... Levi and I are dating!" I put a fake smile on and congratulated her, she then got some clothes and went to levis room, after wrapping my wrist and arms to cover the cuts. I  cried my self to sleep thinking Why, why her? I woke up and i went to the mess hall. I saw my friends, eren,armin,and miaskia. I went and sat by eren, he looked at me with a worm smile and open arms. When i sat down i was engolfed with a strong but small pair of arms around me and a chest in my face. I looked up at eren and his only words were "its ok", I pushed the warmth of erens body after hugging him. I began to eat my bread when i noticed jean staring at me. I suddenly got up and walked over to him. I sat next to him and had some small talk untill I asked him why he was staring at me. "Hey why were you staring?" I asked bored. "Well it was because miaskia was beside you." A slight fear in his voice. I stared at him and leand in and wispered in his ear "if you ever stare at her when i am around you will wish you were dead." I said making myself sound demonic and phychotic. He ran out of the room and I decied to follow him to scare him a little more. I heard him say hurtful things about me. "Bitch,why dosent she just stop protecting evryone?, its annoying!" I jumped out and i was pissed. "You better run or your dead!" As soon as he heard me he ran back to the mess hall as fast as he could and hid behind eren. "I am going to kill you jean!" I yelled sound as phychotic as i could, i held a evil smile on my lips as i walked into the mess hall to see eren sitting straight up as a board. I walk to eren and wisper,"move or your next" he soon moved and there sat jean shaking like a little child going insane. I walked up to him and told him to get on his feet. He stood up and began to attack me, trying to make fall so he could run. I was stronger than i looked. I grabbed the punch he threw and twisted his arm to his back, causing a snap sound that ecoed threw the mess hall. He then realized i was serious and tried to run but i wouldn't allow that. I took him by the hair and wrapped my arms around his neck and wispered "sorry" , before flipping him backwords by his neck. He groned in pain and i was soon pulled back by eren and armin. I told them to let me go so i could finnish what i had started. Eren and Armin was well aware what i could do, after all they knew my past of killing for fun. I was struggling to get out of the strong boys arms. I then heard a "tch, put her in chains, and get jean medical attention NOW!" That was the last thing i heard before it all went dark.