Sometimes I think that if I let myself go
That I will let everyone down.
I think if I give up on the little I have to
Fight for,
Then there will be no one to fight for
Me.
It's hard to hold feelings you have
When you have to follow rules
When you have guidelines for love
And you can't talk to them in public
It's like we're back to grade school.
We can't have a relationship where
You come to my house
And we eat snacks
And watch movies
And play games
We have to have a relationship
Where I hug you once
Shortly
Each day.
Our relationship is where we talk
Only a little
Where we have one time a day to just
Let loose.
And I'm sick of it.
It's hard to love when you can't talk
It's like falling for a stranger
A nobody
It's falling for someone
Where you can't go anywhere
Where you can't be
Seen.
I'm sick of hiding.
I'm sick of pretending.
Because I want a relationship,
That's all I ask.
But I can't have that
Not with you
Because you have to hide.
You have to pretend
You have to follow the rules
And I'm sick of it
Because I love you
And I don't want to lose you
But it's like I can't even talk to you
And I'm sick of it
