My random writings

Trying to stop those feelings

~ July 1st 2016, 1:07pm~

It's hard to watch the person you've fallen for fall for someone else, seeing them happy with other people they can actually see, talk to  do things with them.
It's hard especially since the person you fell for you met online, And you tried not to fall for them and have any kind of feelings for them but as your friendship progresses you fall even more for them, and you tell yourself every night, you didn't fall for them like you think you did, you try to convince yourself, but it doesn't work. And you want to tell them how you feel, but you don't want to look dumb and get hurt. So you stand back, stay friends and watch them be happy with someone else, while you do your best to hide your feelings and get jealous about it. Then you end up losing that person, but in the end you were going to lose them anyways right? So you push them away thinking maybe those feelings will go a away by that just makes them stronger. What do you do? Nothing you just sit there in your God for Saken sad mind and cry yourself to sleep every night, and lie about what's wrong, because you don't want to be hurt again.