Inlove With You

Chapter 23

" Dude, why are you acting so weird!!"

Napatayo ako bigla ang i hide her picture under my pillow.
Then i look at them.

Tss. Tom ...

" Fuck dude!! Did you know the word privacy!!" i shout at them.

They just open the door and walk in my private room!!

" Sorry dude, were just checking you out, you been acting weird this last few days, what the hell happened?" Finn said seriously.

Hes always like that, laging seryoso, parang pasan pasan ang lahat ng problema sa mundo.

" im ok, you can leave" im not in the mood to talk to them. I want to be alone. I want to think. I need space

" dont push us away dude, were here for you!" with matching drama effect pa si Tom! Tsk, still stuck in his childhood memories

" look im ok, no need to worry" i said bored and i lay in my bed

" had you ever look in a mirror? Your face says it all. Look at your eyes, it says your tired, and you eyebags!! Means sleepless nights, and you hair, like your solving a math problems!" loko talaga toh si Tom. Tsk.

Sinamaan ko nalang sya ng tingin, he smiled widely tsaka tumahimik.

Ikinipit ko na nalang ang mata ko, its true, im tired, not physically, but emotionaly, i have'nt sleep well since the day that Kei confessed, 3 days after.

" is it because of Keisha? Or Mia?"

Napamulat ako sa sinabi ni Finn, tinaasan ko sya ng kilay. Bakit ba ganito itong mga barkada ko!!
" Tsss." i hissed and i sat on my bed.

" keisha then" biglang sabi nanaman ni Finn, hindi nalang ako umimik, naguguluhan na kasi ako.

" Talk to her"

Napatingin ako sa sinabi nya,

" i tried so many times Bro, but she kept avoiding me." i said.

" hindi ka nagkakaganyan sa mga babae except to Mia." napakunot naman ang nuo ko, anong point nya?

" what do you mean?" i ask

" why are you so damn affected everytime shes ignoring you? " he ask.

Bakit nga ba? Bakit nga ba ako affected? Bakit parang ang sakit kapag iniiwasan niya ako?, is it because, ganito rin ang nangyari sa amin ni Mia before she broke up with me? Nung time na iniiwasan nya rin ako? I think im scared na maulit uli yun, and now na naulit, its like the same as before.

" again dude, please... Shes not Mia, mia left you 2 years ago and you still have'nt move on, you keep waiting on her, try to open your heart again Green" sabi nya then umalis na sila ni Tom, di nila kasama si Bryan kasi may football match sila sa UK.

Kinuha ko uli yung picture nya sa ilalim ng unan ko, Yes, i have a picture of her, kinuha ko ito sa wallet nya that time she drop it.

I dont know what comes in my mind why did i steal her picture. It mesmirize me.

Tsk, naguguluhan na talaga ako, i love Mia... And somehow i see Kei as Keisha not Mia, and i know shes important for me as herself not as i saw others on her. I cant say the word,
But... Its hurt when she walk away, like a knife stubs in ny heart.

And I miss her so much, i miss her lips, i miss her smile, i havent seen her smiling starts when she confess, and she act cold not just in me, but in everyone. It affect her so much, she change.

And she change not for the best, she pick the wrong path, Shes not Keisha anymore.

I need to fix this, im not giving her false hope anymore. I like her, i just realize i like her, and i cant stand everytime shes away.

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" its for the best Ash, please.. Let me" Sabi ni Mia sakin,napakuyom yung kamao ko sa sinabi nya

Were here in my house, she told me that she wants to tell me something

" No mia, please.." i beg, i beg for her..

" Kaya natin toh Mia, please naman oh, dont leave me." lumuhod na ako sa harap nya.

I love her very much, i can do anything for her, shes my first

" tumayo ka dyan Ash, Dont beg just for a girl ok? Its my loss, not yours Ash. Please wag mo na tong gawing mahirap para sa atin. " im crying and shes not, i know she dont want me to see her weak, to cry.

Shes breaking up with me, in our 1st anniversary!!

" Mia, baby,... Please! Nakaya naman natin diba? I wont let her do anything stupid again Mia, please, just dont leave me, i love you Mia" i hug her tight, pero kumakalas sya..

" Pagod na ako Ash" bulong nya sakin, then she walk away...

Shes tired, shes tired protecting herself from my mother.

Fuck !!! Im such a weak boyfriend! I cant even save her from my Mom

Im scared, scared for what my Mother can do, im scared that time, shes blackmailing me!

She left me! My first love,.. She left me to protect us, to protect me!

Fuck!! Ang hina hina ko!

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But after Mia left me, i learn how to fight, even my Mom, Tamara... I can hurt her from now on, i wont let her ruined my life again.

I grew stronger now, tougher, and i can fight back even in my mother.