The Support Group

Chapter 3 - Flynn, Letter

Dear Fiona,

I'm so sorry mum. I fucked up. I really fucked up. I honestly did think I was a good kid. I honestly did think that I was going to get a scholarship in football, get a good education, meet a pretty girl, fall in love and give you all the grandchildren you wished for. I thought I was going to be there for you and Faith until I died. Until you both passed on because there was no way I was going to die first and allow you to live a life without me caring for you both. But I fucked up. I left you all alone to look after Faith. When I know you needed me to look after you. I love you both so much remember that. What I did that night wasn't me. I was influenced by drugs. Mara is trying to make it seem as though we were all in this together but we weren't okay. We really weren't. She drugged us. But now we all have to go to jail for it. I promise I'm not that person. I promise you I'm still that good boy you love with a good heart. Im nothing like Dad alright. Im nothing like him I promise. The court thinks we all did drugs. They don't believe us when we say Mara drugged us because she was influenced by drugs as well so it doesn't make sense to them.

Mum, I'm going to be locked away for a long time alright. Im not going to be able to see you for a long time. Just promise me you won't be scared of me. That'll you'll come and visit me. Promise me that you'll still love me because i'll always love you.

You are such a strong woman. You have been strong since you were younger, when your dad use to beat you. You have been so strong in raising two kids. You have looked after Faith so well. She is so intelligent and beautiful. You both have not let her disorder ruin you both. You both have stayed so strong when I couldn't, which is what I admire most about you both. Dad was a coward. He is weak alright, that's why he left us all. It was nothing to do with you, nothing to do with Faith, nothing to do with me either. It was because he was weak. Now I know you became weak for a moment mum. But Faith needs you right now. I need you. You need to be strong. Im counting on you. You need to step up and take care of Faith because she needs you more then anything.

I'll be out as quick as I can alright. I'll try do all I can to get out sooner. If they only understood our situation they'd let me out but they don't. Which is why I am counting on you here. I love you alright. You are my favourite person in this world which is why I know you'll do this not only for Faith, not only myself, but for you. I love you Mum. Don't give up on us. STAY STRONG.

I love you both so much,

From Flynn.