Not Today - Twenty One Pilots

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Josh POV

~ "you know..."I begun, My voice was shaky.~

~"... i haven't thought of doing this for a while, but" my voice cracked~

~"you make me realise..."...~

I stopped...

I couldn't continue speaking, the words just got stuck in my throat.

Am I really going to do this...

A sudden fear flooded me, It pushed me back from the edge.

Sweat was dripping down my forehead. I felt dizzy

I can't do this...

But you must...

Life is not worth living...

Nobody loves you...

I brought my hands to my head, covering my ears in an attempt to make the voices stop.

It didn't work ...

It never works...

I felt sick

I don't want to continue like this and there is only one way to end it.

I take one step

One step closer

Closer to the edge

Closer to the end...

"Josh..." a weak voice called my name from behind. It was dripping of tears and sorrow

"JOSH..." it called again but now stronger, more determined.

"Tyler... " a tear rolled down my cheek as I closed my eyes

"Tyler i- i-"

"NOO..." he hugged me from behind. I could feel his body shaking while he cried on my shoulder
"Josh... don't do it..." his voice was desperate but soft. He whispered in my ear

"But I must..." "they won't leave me alone..."

"You can't leave me here..." his voice cracked
"Stay alive... stay alive..." he said in between sobs
"For me..." he added silently

My heart tore in pieces, I didn't know what to do.
I can't leave my best friend alone in a world like this...

But the voices in my head tell me otherwise.

He betrayed you...

I can't....

I turn around but Tyler keeps hugging me. He won't let go. I felt the edge of the booth poking in my back.

All the emotions were running around in my head.

But it was to much...

My head is aching. The world around me was melting. Colours were swirling together to then drip down again like the world around me was crying.

I felt lightheaded...

I broke the hug

"I'm so sorry..." I choked on the words, struggling to get them out. They were silently floating in the air between all of us.

I lean back...

And I fell...

I fantasized about the fall for a long time. I imagined it peace full, restful.

But it was the complete opposite.

Panic took over my body

I don't want to die...

And then I hit the ground....

Hi guys...

I'm so sorry...

What do you think will happen next, tell me in the comments and don't forget to vote.

Btw I don't know where I got that picture of tyler in a crop top but you're welcome XD

I hope you enjoyed and stay alive...