my poems

you moved on

i want to be happy for you - or at least i know i should - but i just can't be. the thought of you with her breaks my heart in two and i swear i can taste the bile. i hate you for breaking my heart even more than it already was. well, i wish i hated you. but if i'm being honest, i still love you more than ever and want you to hold me. but now, you'll be holding her. she'll be meeting your parents and your sister. they may even like her more. she's prettier than me. you've said such awful things about her and now you're with her. i don't understand why. i want more than anything to wake up and this all be a bad dream: the forced separation, and now you being moved on. i don't know how you're already moved on - i'm not even close. but i know you wouldn't be dating her if  you weren't. you're a good boyfriend and treat your girlfriends like royalty. as awful as this is, i hope she's just a fill-in and you're secretly pining for me and missing me takes over you like it does for me. i know now that i will have to see you two together and i don't think i can take it.