Steal My Heart

when all is lost

A year and a half ago * ( there will be a back and forth between past and now..and this will be a long chapter )

-jade-

Seriously .... this is the fourth time this week Jesy has been out all night , careless , completely ignoring the fact she had to go to work... she's just ..been different since her and jhene broke up.

An hour had passed before Jesy walked in. " Jesy what the he'll.. it's 3 in the morning where have you been?" I asked. She just walked into the kitchen . I got up and followed " Jesy!"

" what jade!"

" where we're you?" . She looked at me. No life in her eyes just hurt. " why dose it matter"

" Jes it's 3 in the morning... you left at seven this morning for work and your just getting home ...I was worried.. " . She just rolled her eyes. I went closer to her, she smelled like alcohol and cheap perfume

" seriously jesy ....another one night stand!"

" jade I'm just having fun.... " her voice trailed off

" no your trying to cover up the fact that your hurting by having sex with random girls you meet at the bar " . She scoffed and walked into the living room popping down on the couch

" no.. I'm just living a little.. "

" Jesy.. " she looked up at me when my voice trailed off. " never mind " I walked upstairs to my room. I was worried for her. The Jesy I knew was being pushed away with this.. Jesy who only had one night stands.. got drunk...that didn't care for anything . She never really smiled anymore . I layed down and dozed off

- next night-
It was 5 in the morning and no sign of jesy . Jhene had really messed up things and jesy was pushing her feelings down .she only cried twice since they broke up now all she dose is fuck random girls .
Seven in the morning no sign of her ..chances are she's at work . I want my best friend back the cheeky ,rude commenting , caring , sweet , understanding best friend ..the girl who's like a big sister to me . I couldnt help but tear up seeing a photo of her when she and jhene started dating ..now there broken up and jesy is just covering the pain and anger .
Around 1 am she walked through the door with clothes that weren't even hers on . " jesy?" She looked at me " yeah jade" her voice cracked a bit

" whats going on .."

" nothing im fine "

" jesy ...you just stayed up and out for two days with god knows how many people inbetween those two days ..for that last 4 months you've been reckless ..sleeping around ...drinking ..probably smoking...staying out days at a time ..all because you cant admit that your fucking hiding you damn feelings .what if you get attacked ..or drugged.. or dose it all not matter to you ." I shouted. She looked thrown back ..her face read hurt but her eyes anger " FUCK YOU THRILWALL.. " she shouted leaving the flat once again only this time I followed her.

" Jesy!" I shouted.. no reply. we were outside when I ran up to her and grabbed her arm . I turned her around smelling. Alcohol.. perfume.. and.. " I KNEW IT your getting high!" I said in disbelief .. she was actually smoking weed

" it's the only way to keep her off my mind " she said moving her arm out of my grip

" Jesy ..come inside"

" no jade.. I wanna have fun" she said walking away.. I couldn't follow because I didn't have shoes on so she disappeared into
the night

-present - (still jades pov)
I toss and turned just remembering how hard it was to get this Jesy back.....I walked over to Jesy's room seeing her sound asleep. I never want her to go back to that Jesy ..the reckless jesy
. " jade.. is everything alright?" Jesy asked turning on her lamp