Shit Journal, where I write shit

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Hi

ok This is a great start. I have absloutely nothing to write about. Nothing is on my mind and to be honest nothing has been shit in my life so far. 

So far of today. And as today I mean by the fact it is 12:53 am and the day hasn't even started yet. It's almost July the 4th, meaning the fireworks are all around and exciting and the rate that people eat corndogs are significantly high, or maybe that's just my family? I feel like they dont even notice they have purchased corndogs and it was just a natural effect from hearing the fireworks. June and July are always hard months for me, not because I am jealous of both of my sisters and my mother having a summer birthday, even though that has always pissed me off for some unknown reason. June and July are the months I am usually spent alone based on my fear of never wanting to hang out with my friends. I honestly have a fear of going to peoples houses and letting people come over to mine. It's pretty fucking weird, I know. I just don't want to go through all the struggle of going to another persons house when I am semi-content with being alone in my own home. Hopefully when I grow up and get my own place it will be less sad and.. messy. I am going to try and venture out of my house as much as I can, I have already have had offers that I reluctantly turn down. I am going to have fun this summer tho! I promised myself.