Childhood feelings

Alternate Ending

A/N:This is an Alternate Ending... still lacks emotions. And also, copyright to myself!!

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Rain keeps on falling. Falling and falling until nothing's left. Every drop that falls on my face is so cold. My eyes hurt; they feel burned despite the cold water of rain rolling down my cheeks. Traces of tears visible on my eyes. They weren't part of me. I will never say it; after all, I chose it. I chose to ignore them, and yet, why won't these tears stop? I had the choice. I had the choice in my hands, but I never chose it. I ignored those feelings I had. I never really expected it.

On that day, I ran away from you and chose to lock all those up. Those feelings I had to you, that love I had felt. I was afraid that you will hate me so I ran. I knew I had the choice then, but I ran. I turned my back away from you and rejected everything I felt. It was hard.

After a week, you went out with that senior. I just watched and smiled at you, seeing the clear sadness in your eyes.

After graduating in college, you proposed to her and got married. Still, I just watched and congratulated you, ignoring the darkness I felt, grow. I smiled like the usual, acted as if nothing had happened, that my love married someone else. I haven't moved on yet, it was hard.

But, I never expected it.

I watched your cold, lifeless body be buried underneath. I looked beside me to see May—she's your wife, right?—staring blankly on your casket. I smiled bitterly and mentally laughed at myself, for both my idiocy and ignorance.

I know that I loved you.

I waited until everyone left before letting all those tears go out. Now, here I am, crying in front of your gravestone and watched the only thing I held back fall on deaf ears.

"I…loved…you…"