Childhood feelings

I love you...

A/N: Still copyright to myself!!~

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Mornings. I hate them. Waking up has been hard since I realized my feelings for him. Dreams about how things might work out. It made it hard for me to sleep. Scenarios in which he says that he loves someone else, saying he doesn't like me that way; him breaking my heart.

I sat up and stretched my arms to remove the kinks of my uncomfortable sleep. I swung my feet to the edge of my bed and set my feet down. I wiggled it a bit before standing up and stretching my whole body. I'll forget it, those lingering feelings that I have, to face everyone with a smile. I inhaled a deep breath and smiled at myself. Yes, I could forget those things for a while, but I know that it will come back to me.

I opened the curtains revealing the peaceful view of the street in the morning. I opened the windows to allow fresh air to breeze in my room.

"Ember, Breakfast!" my mom called.

Ever since dad died, my mom has been more focused on her work than me. I guess it's her own way of moving on, of forgetting.

"Coming!" I responded. I closed the window—wouldn't want robbers to get in now—and trotted down the stairs and greet my mom good morning. As usual, she was already wearing her office clothes.

Breakfast was silent, only the faint sound of the television breaking the silence.

I was going to take a shower when my mom called again.

"Hey Ember, it's already the 13th, tomorrow's the Valentine's Day. I'm going to be on a business trip for 5 days or so. Be sure to visit your father's grave tomorrow." She said. Even though I can't see her, I can sense the sadness lingering in her voice. Dad died on Valentine's Day 3 years ago. I heard the door click shut indicating that she left.

Right, Valentine's Day. I almost forgot about that. I don't have any more time to buy some chocolate for Adrian. At the mere thought of it, I felt quite sad. No, I'm going to give him some as a friend, not as some…I'll just, forget it. I'll buy some on the way home, then.

School had been the same. The same hard to understand lessons, difficult home works and surprise quizzes. Well, everything was normal except for the fact that Adrian seems to be out of it. Normally, he would be really attentive at classes and be able to answer the questions of the teachers without much problem but, today he can't even answer one without saying "I don't know".

I decided to ask him if something was wrong.

"Adrian, something happened earlier?" or yesterday "You seem to be out of it today." I said to him deliberately leaving out the "yesterday" part. It only reminded me of how close he was with that senior.

"Nothing." He said. Something flickered in his eyes but was gone immediately. Maybe it was just my imagination?

"Really? Are you sure?" I said unsure of his answer—which I am.

"Yeah, just something I can't seem to understand the concept of." He said.

I blinked at that. Him? Of all people, not understand something?

"So, what do you need?" He inquired.

"I was wondering if you can come with me to buy something at the store." I said to him.

He contemplated a bit and then nodded.

"Sure. I don't have any plans today." He said. He stood up and we walked out the school toward the store.

There were a lot of customers then. Mostly girls; it almost slipped my mind that there would be a lot of people buying chocolates today.

I said to Adrian to wait outside. I browsed a few racks before deciding on buying a little box of chocolate covered with cute little ribbons and also some for myself. I paid for my merchandise and went outside to meet with Adrian.