Tell Me, Show Me, Believe Me (JoshuaDunxReader)

Insecure // Chap 2.

Reader's POV
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Fear and curiosity came over me. He grabbed my waist and kissed my neck. I pushed him away but he pulled me in. I slipped out from his grip and ran to the door. I found the nearest bathroom and locked myself in it. Tears started to fall and questions were raised in my mind - Will he like what I look like? Will he think I'm disgusting? Will he even accept the way I look?
I wasn't the most beautiful girl. I have a tummy, I'm tall, I have black hair, that's kind of long. A few minutes later, someone knocked on the door, "Who is it?", I said with a lump in my throat
"Tyler, also, are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"Are you sure, (y/n)?"
"Believe me I'm fine", I came out the bathroom, drying my tears
"But, you're lying, you're so very far from fine"
"Really?", I said giggling a bit
"Oh, Josh has been looking for you."
"Really?", I sighed
"Why what's wrong?"
"Insecurities.", I mumbled
"Oh, don't worry about that right now. Live in the moment and forget about how you see yourself also how other people see you.", he said and surprisingly it was helpful. He wrapped his arms around me and I saw Josh down the hall.
"You found her!", he yelled out
"I'm here.", I waved to him as Tyler released me. Another set of arm wrapped around me. The only difference was the these felt like I was supposed to be there. "Two hours until the show guys!", a crew member yelled out. Tyler gave a thumbs up. "Let me see your ticket.", Josh said. I pulled out my phone and showed him, he shook his head.
"What, Joshua?"
"You're gonna get an upgrade, Ms.(y/n).". He pulled me to the manager. "She needs an all access pass and a ticket for the pit.", he demanded.
"Josh we can't d-", he got cut off
"She's very important to me.", I looked at him and he looked back and smiled.
"Okay, Josh!", he wasn't happy. Thirty minutes later they handed me everything that he told them. I hugged him without hesitation. "Thank you, thank you, thank you!", I screamed.
"After the show, I want you to meet me out back and I'll come and get you."
"Yes, sir.", I said immediately after.
"That's the spirit, baby doll!", he exclaimed while I shook my head smiling.
"Rehearsal in five!", Tyler yelled. I couldn't believe what was happening. I followed him to the stage, he handed me his phone and said "Snapchat.", I nodded.
I first took a silly selfie with a caption that said, "Taking over his Snapchat!". I immediately knew that I was gonna have fun. A bunch of random videos and photos flooded his snapchat and soon his Instagram. They took the rest of the time mentally preparing themselves for the show. "I'm gonna get in line for the concert.", I said to Josh
"Okay, be careful. I know if they see you they're gonna ask you a lot of questions. If you need anything call me."
"I need your number, Josh."
"Oh, right. It's [insert random phone number].", I nodded
"Thanks, again.", I said eagerly. I walked out to see a couple of people. One of them came up,"You're her!", they said with wide eyes.
"I don't know what you're talking about."
"Don't act dumb!"
"Please, leave me alone! I have no idea what you're talking about!"
^I dial Josh^
Me: You were right!
Josh: Told you, (y/n).
Me: I just avoided the question.
Josh: Try your best to not get ambushed.
Me: I'm scared!
Josh: You'll be fine. Doors open in 20 minutes.
Me: Bye, you dork.
Josh: Love you, bye.
^he hangs up^
My jaw dropped when he said the L-word. I was lost and confused for about five minutes. The line started to move as fans started to scream. I was so hype for the performance, everyone was. I ran to the barricade getting left center, where Josh would be drumming. As the minutes passed by more and more fans poured in. The lights went down and everyone, including me, yelled with excitement. The beat to Heavydirtysoul started.
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The set seemed to fly by. Soon enough it was Trees being preformed. I was the one of the last ones to leave, Josh texted me to knock six times on the door I came out of. I walked out and many people were in front of the door. I tried to get through, but I couldn't.
^I text him^
Me: I can't get through, Josh :(
Josh: Wait a few minutes ;)
Me: I wanna see your face
(Because it's my taste in music) ;))
Josh: You're the Tear In My Heart, (y/n) </3
Me: Can this day get any better? :)
Josh: I think I can :D
Me: We'll see, Josh
Josh: Not Josh anymore ;)
Me:
{Read at 9:18 pm}
Josh: C'mon?
Me: I'm insecure, Josh. Almost about everything.
Josh: I don't hate, I appreciate. I won't judge you, (y/n).
Me: Promise?
Josh: Promise.
I look up from my phone and walk to the door. I knock six times and the door opens. Josh's arms go around me and I yell, "Sweaty!".
"Oh, sorry.", he said laughing a bit. He pulls me past Tyler into his dressing room. I sit down and open my Uber app. He takes my phone and looks at the screen, he shook his head. "No!", he protested.
"What?!"
"I don't want you to go home!"
"I have to", I say with hesitation
"Why can't you stay?"
"I think I'm gonna be a problem, Josh."
"No, you aren't gonna be a problem."
"Why should I believe you?", I said looking down
"Because..."
"Exactly!", I started to walk away
"(Y/n), because I love you.", he said. I stopped in my tracks and seriously said, "No one has ever loved me, Josh."
"Well I do!". I turned around and ran to him, grabbed his face, and kissed him. "I love you too, Josh.". I always seem to fall in love but, usually they don't feel the same way that I feel about them. He exhaled and hugged me. "Are you staying with me?", he asked quietly
"What do you think?"
"Yeah...". I nodded, he smiled so big.
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Random thoughts with ProFAN
I feel like I'm the only one that thought the Joker was so hot in Suicide Squad.
Also, Josh's smile is life.
Sorry if there was mistakes, I got sick and I don't feel like editing. :(