Tell Me, Show Me, Believe Me (JoshuaDunxReader)

Flipped // Chap. 5

Tyler was kind enough to share his house with me for the night. We watched movies, mainly horror. He fell asleep first and minutes later I did the same. Tyler tugged on my shirt, he told me to follow him. I followed him into a room that was well furnished. He signaled me to lay down. Once I did, he left and went to his own room. My stomach was turning and I felt like I was going to throw up. I stood up and I felt the vomit coming up, I knelt down in front of the trash can. Immediately it came up. I started to cry for no absolute reason, Tyler ran in. He held my hair back and said "It's gonna be okay" repeatedly. I hugged him and we went back towards the floor. I got up and asked, "Where's the bathroom, Ty?", I asked covering my mouth
"Down the hall, third door on the um- left.", he said. I went to the bathroom and washed my mouth out with water and mouthwash. I stood in the hallway with an eerie feeling, I walked slowly towards the dark room we were just in. I flipped the light switch and I saw Tyler laying on the bed sleeping. I turned off the light and slipped in the bed with him. I slept under the cover and he slept over it.
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I woke up and went downstairs to where noise was coming from. Tyler was cleaning a bit, I rubbed my eyes and said, "Goodmorning."
"Finally you're awake!", he said looking up.
"I just realized I don't have anything to wear or to keep my hygiene up", I said looking at my clothes. I felt disgusting. "Don't worry about that, I was going to take you to get some stuff today around 1 pm."
"Are you sure Tyler? I have some money that I could use.", I said
"No, it's fine, really.". I felt bad and disgusting, great! I asked if I could use his washing machine and dryer, he gladly said yes. I put my clothes I and wandered around the house. I walked back to the room where I've been staying. I texted Josh and he didn't reply back. My clothes came out and I put them in the dryer. "Can't help falling in love with you", Tyler was singing and it came towards me. He was smiling really hard when he walked in. "Why are you smiling so big, Tyler?", I asked
"Because, (y/n), I'm here with you."
"Should we head out?", I asked him. He nodded, we headed downstairs and near to the door was a table with a bowl. He pulled out the keys to the house and the key to the car. He held the door open for me, I walked towards the drive way where a black car unlocked. He got in on the drivers seat and I sat in the passenger side. The radio started to play and "Ride" was on. We both started to sing along, he pulled out and drove down the road.
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Once we got to the shopping mall, he parked and got out he raced to the other side of the car and opened the door for me. "Was that necessary, Tyler?"
"Very.", he said loudly. People laughing and socializing filled my ears. I quickly became paranoid and grabbed onto Tyler's arm. "Where should we go?", he asked. I looked straight into his eyes and then he replied, "C'mon, let's find a Hot Topic."
"You know me so well.". I didn't really get anything, just 2 shirts and a sweater. "I wanna go somewhere, but you can't come.", I said. He pouted and nodded. He tried to hand me money but I refused to take it. "Meet me here in 45 minutes.", he said. I walked fast away from him. Victoria's Secret appeared in front of me, I smiled. I went crazy. I was at checkout and it has been thirty minutes. I walked out with 3 bags full of panties and bras. Five minutes until I had to meet Tyler. We both seemed to get there on time and exactly the same moment. He eyes widened looking at the bags, "They had a sale!", I said whisper-yelling. He gave me something in a H & M bag. I pulled out a black and white dress, "Its beautiful, Tyler! But how do you know my exact size?"
"I very good at observing you.", he said low. I hugged him tightly.
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My phone rang. It was Josh, i answered it.
Josh: Where are you?
Me: With Tyler, why?
Josh: When are you going to get back?
Me: Soon.
Josh: Oh, okay
He hung up. His voice was shaky. We got in the car, "Im tired of this music!", he said and handed me the auxiliary cord. "Are you sure?"
"Yes, why?", he asked
"My music interests widely varies." I pressed shuffle and surprise. Drake comes on. "Here let me change it."
"No keep it here.". He started jamming to drake, it was a sight I never thought, I would see. Soon enough we got to Walgreens. He went in with me but I truly didn't want him to. Tyler bought me basic necessities. Shampoo, conditioner, shaving razors, body wash. I didn't want him spending much on me. We headed to his house, and talked the entire way home. Once we got here I grabbed all the bags and took them inside. Tyler opened the door and Josh was sitting on the staircase. I walked in and he kissed me hard, he tasted like alcohol and vomit. I pushed him off of me. I'm pretty sure he didn't know why. Josh pulled Tyler in the kitchen. I stood there not know what to expect. I went upstairs and laid out everything I got. Panties, bras, pants, shirts, and the black and white dress Tyler got me. The door opened, I turned around to find both of the looking at the bed of clothes. "Where should I put these?", I said while their eyes were wide and jaws dropped.
"In t-the dresser.", Tyler said, I nodded happily. I knelt down and started to organise everything in the pure black dresser. I left the dress out. Tyler left and Josh closed the door. He sat me down and said," I'm sorry I didn't answer you at first, I got caught up in what i was doing."
"What were you doing?", I said looking straight into his eyes. He knows that I wouldn't tolerate lies from him. "I-I was with Debby.", he said looking down
"What were you guys doing?", I asked calmly.
"We have a few drinks a-"
"How many?", I cut him off
"Like one beer and five shots."
"Shots of what?"
"Vodka", he whispered
"Then what happened?"
"She kissed me!", he yelled. I walked out the room and found Tyler. I hugged him and sobbed. "What's wrong?"
"Jebby!", I yelled. Josh came in and tried to explain. I rans downstairs and outside and kept running without a destination. They ran after me but quickly realised they couldn't get me. I got dark I was down a couple of roads, I glanced over and saw Tyler's car . I tired to hide myself. Josh was in the back seat tearing up. Tyler came out and sat down on the curb with me. He held me hands and said, "Josh is sorry and he didn't know what to do, she just came onto him.". I nodded, got back up, and wiped my tears off my face. I opened the door and the cold air whipped my face. I looked at Josh, his posture screamed guilt. Tyler got in and drove straight towards his house, Josh put his warm hand on my shoulder and tightened his grip. I looked at his lips knowing that they have been kissed by another girl, I looked at myself in the reflection of my phone knowing that he kissed me with the same lips he betrayed me with. I never thought that in a million years he would cheat in someone. Questions were racing through my mind; Why did he even go out with her, does he still love her, does he even like me? I didn't notice we were there until Josh opened the door. I didn't say anything, I walked to the room, I opened the window. I stepped out onto the platform and sat down. I heard their voices coming closer, I stared forward looking at the sunset. Tyler peered out the window, probably hoping to not see a dead body on the ground. I looked up and smiled, he smiled back. I got up and climbed back in. I didn't want to face my problems, I wanted to run away from them literally. I had a playlist exactly for this kind of moment. It's happened before, but I haven't felt this hurt. I loved Josh with all my heart and soul but I never felt that love coming back. "Yeah Boy Doll Face" by Pierce The Veil came on and it by followed by "All I Want" by Kodaline. I crawled into the bed and hugged a pillow, Josh was by my legs and Tyler was sitting down next to the bed. I fell asleep, like always.
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I woke up around 2:45 am. Josh had taken a shower and Tyler had gone to his room. I hugged Josh, I hated to see him sad. I kissed his forehead a couple times. He was laying down in front of me, I wrapped my leg around him, I got closer to him. It felt right yet so wrong. I didn't need him I wanted him. He was sweet, kind, funny.
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I woke up to fingers against my skin tracing something invisible. "Good morning.", I said to him
"You should get a tattoo.", he said quietly. I've never considered a tattoo. Simply the thought of it makes my hands sweaty. I laughed at him.