Say You Want Me( Rierra fan fiction)

Chapter 5; Something There

Hey everyone soo sorry for not updating, I've been bizzy with work but it's my last day tomorrow so I will update a lot more. Hope you like the story so far and please vote,comment and continue reading!!! :) 

Sierra's pov

I don't know what I'm doing. I'm lost. I have a drunk fiance in my bed and a lover on my mind. I don't know what to do. I don't wnat to marry Tam. I loved him once, but not this man, this drunk, foolish, mean man who thinks there is something going on between me and Ramin, unfortunatley his right.

I have feeling's for Ramin, I want to talk to Tam and to tell him that I'm breaking of the engagement and that I'm falling for Ramin, well, acctually, I have fallen for Ramin. I don't care how he is going to react. 

If he wants to beat me to death go ahead, but I have something to live for. I have my crazy hippie parents and my two sisters. I have my dream job and the most wonderful friends and the most adorable boyfriend...ok were not boyfriend/ girlfriend yet but we could be. I just kinda want to wait until his divorce is done, becuase it might be weird for me to go a date with a married man.

Ramin has'nt asked me yet and that's just fine beacuse I don't wnat him to ask me, not until I've talked with Tam. I just hope that everything will go as planned. Like hey Tam, I'm breaking up with you beacuse you've changed and I'm also falling for Ramin just like you said. Okay bye!. No god, I could never say that! 

Perhaps I can just do it now that he is home instead of a text message or a simple phonecall. I can't believe it's over, Tam and I ahve been togehter for three years and engaged for a year because we've never really planned the wedding at all. We have both been very bizzy with work and Tam's drinking problems. All I know is that I don't care about a fancy wedding, I just wnat to marry the man I love. And it's not Tam.

Ramin and I have kissed twice, the electrisity between us is unbelivable! It's like were on stage doing Phantom exept there are no directors, no composer, no music, no costumes, no wigs, no make-up just us. Rierra. How it should be.

I trust Ramin with my hole heart, I'm so happy taht we work togehter again, there is nothing more I'd rather want. I love working with him and he's my love never dies guy! We've created so mutch togehter and I'm so happy that we have the same humor, the same passion for music and noodless. I love that we did'nt have to work togehter to try and work togehter. 

I know there was something that was'nt there before, he looks at me differently. Tutches me differently, loves me differently, kisses me more passionatley than I never thought was possible. I mean were just two idiots looking for comfort. I mean he's in a divorce and I'm in a broken engangment...wait a minute.

What if he says these thing's to me beacuse he's hurt? and I'm hurt to...perhaps I should ask him that before he askes me out, beacuse we both hate akward moments and Ramin and I NEVER have an akward moment, not ever. Why? beacuse we are awsome! No it could'nt be anything like that could it?

The apartment was quiet, Tam woke up from his sleep even though it's afternoon. I have a day of today so, a perfect day to break up with my fiance, is'nt it. I had a bad feeling about this. Even though I can't live with this man, I still don't want to hurt him. "Tam, can I talk to you" I said nervously, he did'nt look up from the news papers. "Hmm" he said still not looking up. I sighed and took a breath and tell him the thing's that he needs to hear from my heart.