Empty Hands Lonely Eyes.

15. Ignored feelings.

She woke up at 9:00 the next day her night was full of tossing and turning and she barely got any sleep, why was she even awake this early? She couldn't stay in bed any longer she was too warm and uncomfortable so she slowly got out of bed and walked downstairs. Her mam was in the living room getting ready for work at a local drugstore Kamri sat on the sofa and watched as she put on her makeup.

"Oh love your up early you going out somewhere today?"~Kamri's Mam

"I couldn't sleep....no I don't have any plan's"~Kamri

"Ah alright well if you do go outside give me a text so I know where your are"~Kamri's Mam

"Okay"~Kamri

"Right babe I have to go to work you go make yourself some breakfast I will talk to you later"~Kamri

Her mam leaned down and kissed kamri's forehead then walked outside to her car and drove away. Kamri took out her phone and started to scroll through tumblr her feed was full of kittens cute puppys and depressing quote's boring she thought. She then opened youtube, clicked on her sub box and began to watch every video in it. After over an hour of watching her sub box she came to a video of two girl's she had subscribed too month's ago they didn't post often but when they did it was pretty cute. She had barely watched there video's if she was honest she couldn't even remember how she found them. It was the last video in her sub box that she hadn't watched so she clicked onto it and started to watch it, instantly her heart started to beat out of her chest these girl's were so cute. They were a long distance couple one American the other British,they had found each other on tumblr and they were lesbian's. Kamri instantly fell in love with there relationship as she started to watch multiple video's of theres until suddenly she had watched them all...

Kamri looked up at the clock and it was 5:45 she had spent the whole day watching kaelyn and Lucy her mam was due home at 6:00 and she hadn't even eaten. Kamri frantically jumped up off the sofa and ran to the kitchen, her Mam had left her pasta in the fridge for her dinner she grabbed it ran out to the back yard and dumped it onto the shed so the birds and the local cats could eat it. She put the empty plate in the sink so it looked like she had eaten it and ran upstairs and dumped her head over the side of the bath tub so she could quickly wash it then she towel dried it and tied it up in a messy bun. She jumped into a pair of leggings and a sweater and ran downstairs just as her Mam walked in the front door.

"Hey Baby oh great your dressed and showered and here's me thinking you were gonna sit on your butt all day"~Kamri's Mam

"Hah yeah"~Kamri

Kamri walked into the living room and sat down on the sofa her thoughts consuming her, Why did she just spend the whole day watching a lesbian couple online and why did it feel so right?. Suddenly Darcy popped into her mind what was her feelings towards her, when Matt had said she was a lesbian she had felt suddenly happy and she didn't know why.

Maybe she had a crush on Darcy she had thought it before but always dismissed it.
When she first met Darcy she was left speechless at everything about Darcy her voice, her body, how effortlessly beautiful she was everything about her was so perfect but she had just brushed it off as her anxiety of meeting someone new.
And at the Snowman festival when they had met Darcy's ex friend sam kamri couldn't help but feel something for Darcy but told herself it was cause she related to loosing friend's and nothing more.
At Colleen's party when they were cuddled up on the porch swing the thought came back into her mind this time it lingered. As Kamri had her arm's wrapped around Darcy she had felt crazy butterflies and it was in that moment she had considered maybe she liked girl's too but she tried her best to ignore it and just enjoy the moment cause all she knew was that she wasn't aloud act on her feelings in risk of loosing Darcy all together.
No way was kamri ever gonna tell Darcy about her feelings no way was she gonna loose her Bubba by creeping her out over feelings that might not exist, she thought as she lay with Darcy pressed up against her.