My Lethe

he vowed to heal Zhang Wei.

Zhang Wei faced Qiang who lovingly stared back at him. The intensity in his stare was overwhelming yet Zhang Wei couldn't seem to look away.

Qiang dragged his finger along Zhang Wei's soft cheek, admiring how attractive he was. His facial features were so perfect, so pleasing to look at that Qiang could watch him all day without a single problem.

"Are you hungry?" Qiang asked. Zhang Wei thought for a short moment and nodded. They were teenage boys, after all, and hunger did consume though multiple times during the day," What food do you want to eat? Pizza?"

"Hamburgers!" He happily said, then the tone of his voice seemed to drop down. The smile on Qiang's face disappeared instantly as he realized the difference in Zhang Wei's expression. Zhang Wei couldn't hide his feelings well, so when there were moments of sadness to excitement, Qiang would know.

"Zhang Wei, why are you suddenly upset?" Zhang Wei adjusted himself on the bed, so that he was on the other side of it. His back coldly faced Qiang, even when Qiang moved to it, it still felt so cold.

"Zhang Wei, are you ignoring me?"

Qiang looked at him for a few seconds before tucking the covers around Zhang Wei's body," I'm going to get chicken. " He said and climbed off of the bed. As he opened the door, he turned around and faced Zhang Wei. One minute Zhang Wei was happy and then the next he shut Qiang out. Qiang couldn't seem to understand exactly what had just happened.

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When Qiang returned back from the restaurant, he carried two boxes of chicken into the house. Liling and Yong were at work, so with the empty house, it was almost as if they were the only two there. It was like they were the owners and they were happily married.

Qiang left the chicken on the kitchen table, then excitedly went back into the quiet bedroom. Zhang Wei still laid in that position, however Qiang ignored the lack of difference and fell onto the bed beside him. He wrapped his arms around his waist, and attacked his neck with his lips. Qiang really liked the idea of living with Zhang Wei so much it got him excited.

"Let's live together, Zhang Wei, that way I can fuck you and we can make all the noise we want." Qiang reached his arm down, and began to massage Zhang Wei's member through his jeans. This would usually make Zhang Wei hard, but this time it just made him fustrated.

"Qiang, why don't you go home now? Don't stay here anymore." Qiang ignored Zhang Wei, and instead unzipped his pants. Zhang Wei smacked his hands away, shockingly harder than Qiang would ever expect from such a gentle person like Zhang Wei.

"Zhang Wei, why would you hit me so hard?" Zhang Wei glanced at him, exposing the sadness in his eyes. His eyes were lightly red, not enough to make the decision that he had been crying, but enough to draw Qiang's attention.

"What happened? You're upset with me for no reason, you usually like it when I do that to you, right?"

"Why are you upset? Tell me, now." Qiang pulled Zhang Wei's shoulders back, causing him to fall onto his back. Zhang Wei closed his eyes in order to avoid making eye contact with Qiang," You tell me, now. I won't let you go easy if you stay quiet like this."

"It's none of your business."

"But you're my business. Your sadness is my sadness. Tell me now, Zhang Wei. " Zhang Wei opened his eyes and looked over at Qiang. Qiang's face was covered in concern when all Zhang Wei felt was remorse.

"I miss my family." He said and looked away from Qiang.

"Why? You saw them just this morning."

Zhang Wei chuckled and shook his head," They aren't my biological family. They adopted me before I moved here. Back in
Lingshui Cun, I had three brothers and my two parents at home. "

Qiang now understood. Actually, he knew Zhang Wei had siblings, and he subconsciously wondered why he never saw them.

"Why did your parents give you up for adoption? "

Zhang Wei's lips turned into a painful frown. His entire face turned from sadness to great pain. Seeing this, Qiang extended his arm out and held Zhang Wei's face in his hands.  The tears flowed down his face and fell onto Qiang's hand.

"Zhang Wei, what happened? " His voice was full of concern. He had never seen this side to Zhang Wei. The tears that flowed down his hand felt uncomfortable for him.

"They passed away." He said. Zhang Wei opened his eyes, but didn't look at Qiang. Instead he looked out of the window. The walls surrounding him were covered in flames, as he remembers that night, but the stars pass the window were gorgeously bright. As if they were speaking to Zhang Wei's subconscious and saying to him "Look into the sky, when ever you miss your family, remember that the bright stars are your family's smiles as they look down on you."

Qiang unknowingly tightened the grip on Zhang Wei's face, but Zhang Wei couldn't feel the pressure on his cheeks. Neither of them were paying attention to anything but the thought of Zhang Wei's family.

"Your brothers? They're dead? Your parents..too?...how?" Zhang Wei once again closed his eyes and violently shook his head. He didn't want to speak of that again, he could never speak of that again. The pain in his heart was too hurtful to bring out.

"You should leave when you're told to. I didn't want to speak of this. So please leave, now," Zhang Wei said. His voice was more cold than Qiang ever heard before. He truly never saw a side like this before. Qiang was never easily intimidated, but some how Zhang Wei scared him in that moment. He only saw a person lost in pain that takes control. However, Qiang thought that if he left, Zhang Wei would be left to himself alone. Truthfully he must have felt alone for all this time.
Qiang wrapped his arms around Zhang Wei and patted his head gently.

"You think I'll leave? You think I'll ever leave you? Cry into my chest, Zhang Wei, it's okay because you're no longer alone." I'm here.

Qiang didn't know, but Zhang Wei vowed to do what it took to heal Qiang. Zhang Wei didn't know, but Qiang could see just how hurt he was... And in that moment, he vowed to heal Zhang Wei.