Heartbreaking love

The first

Elliot was indeed my first crush well that's what my fourteen year old mind thought, he was sweet, funny adorable and the best friend I had ever had, I loved everything about that boy even after I got over the crush which was extremely quick hence why till this day I believe that I wanted it to be more than a crush when it wasn't.

When we were fourteen I had admitted my little crush to Elliot, he was sweet about it and never teased me but I could see that he was awkward about it so I just never brung it up.

A few months after I had revealed my crush to Elliot we were in my treehouse playing video games, Elliot was extremely quiet compared to normal but I just pushed my thoughts aside since sometimes he would go quiet when thinking.

A few moments later Elliot sat up and called my name, I answered and looked at him across the room, he fiddled with the hem of his shirt and instantly knew he was nervous.

"Alexis, umm can you come here? I need to talk to you.." He had said I quickly nodded and got up from my spot in the corner and joined him on the couch, he had looked down and fiddled more with his shirt, picking out the seam and I started to feel nervous, many terrible things were running through my head he had got me worried.

"What is it Elliot?" I coughed out the thoughts getting worse as each second passed, my throat had closed up, you know that feeling you get when you know you're about to cry but you don't want to and you can't talk? Yeah well that is how I felt.

"Umm, ahh..." Elliot mumbled a few times before quickly pecking me on the lips, he was blushing a lot and I just sat there in shock.

Yeah my first kiss was only a split second peck on the lips but I think it's cute it was from my E.

We sat in silence for awhile after that honestly I didn't feel the Sparks like the books said I would which made me disappointed cause I really did think I liked him.
Elliot looked so disappointed in himself, he was on the verge of tears.

"E are you okay?"

"Alexis" he sniffled "I... I can't tell you... You won't like me as a friend anymore.." He said while putting his head in this hands.

"Of course we still will be friends! E you're my best friend! I don't care if you don't like me, I don't wanna lose you!" I said moving closer to him to hug him, and I was being honest i didn't care if he didn't like me, I didn't care that he kissed me, all I cared about was Elliot and i wanted him to be happy.

"I don't... I don't like girls Alexis, I've known for awhile but I thought maybe kissing you would make me like girls but... But it didn't... I'm sorry Alexis." He sniffled.

"Oh Elliot it's okay, don't be sad! Yeah I'm sad you don't like me but I'm just glad I still have you as a friend! I love you like a brother... Oh I don't think I liked you as a boyfriend way now that I think about it... I hope you find your Prince Charming one day though Elliot!" I said hugging him.
Oh how my fourteen year old mind worked, change my views on crushes so easily.

"Thank you Alexis, I hope you find your Prince Charming one day too."

Oh but Elliot you where my only Prince Charming, my best friend who saved me from the world.

If only you knew how important you where to me my E.

If only you knew how broken I am without you.

If only you know how much I love you.