the night we had our first fight
i was at my cousin's house high and you said
"Its just that like everything you do pisses me off"
i sat in his truck with tears staining my cheeks, whipsering "i just want someone to love me"
now its 2 months later and im laying in my bed at 4 in the afternoon wishing i was high
im alone again.
i miss you again.
i have this bear you gave me the night our relationship turned 2 months old
i wonder if you know i cant sleep if this fluffy little creature isnt wrapped safely in my arms
and i know its irrational
but i still am holding back tears because i know you can leave
and this mass of brown fur doesnt deserve to be drowned in tears again
but im alone again.
i miss you again.
i still have red lines on my wrist healing from the last time i broke apart
and a big part of me wants to open my veins again and watch the blood pool around me like it use to everynight
i still have the blades hidden in my room where only i can find them
and god, its hard to stay together when every fiber of you is ready to wash away drown the drain of my bathtub
a few capfuls of bleach to wash away the memory of blood staining the white porcelain
i wonder how many capfuls of bleach it would take to wash away the memory of me
i dont want you to find out
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Lost In Myself, Someone Save Me?
Teen FictionSeries of poems written by me, LivingInNeverlandxx. Feel free to give me feedback, negative and positive because I encourage, accept, and embrace any feedback. Sorry about my terrible description, I'm not all that good at these but I'm a pretty grea...
