july 6
i want to cry. i need something to make me happy because i lost the one with the beautiful eyes and perfect attitude. im never doing a risk again because im just left here. i hate this. i hate that i only am in love with the idea of love. i always get broken in the end by acting like a child and wanting to go farther ahead and i have no clue who to love next and i don't know how to be happy but i want him to be here but hes not here because he probably hates me just like he did 3 years ago. i worked for 3 months to get in the spot i am right now and then i get fucking this for one little mistake. he hurt me so much. i just didn't reply. he didn't give me a chance. i don't want to cry. i want to be happy but its hard when he was the only one i had my eyes on. its always just that little amount of time and then i am left in shattered pieces again. i need someone who wants me.
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lost in my thoughts
Randomto vent. to be sad. to be happy. to write. to whatever. ;i have been writing this since the beginning of 2016 and i was looking back this january, 2017 and i decided post
