Being the Teacher's Dirty Little Secret (TxS)

Chapter 9

After talking to Lolita the other day, laying in bed with her we decided to keep our relationship strictly teacher and student. She no longer stays with me during break periods, I don't keep her behind after class periods to talk. I don't even call on her during class periods as well.

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Three Months Later
Tiger's Point of View
I saw her today, it seems like it's been forever. She looks more beautiful than before, I wanted to ask her how she was going. I can barely look at her without crying, I wish I could tell her I missed her, I meant what I wanted to say. I still love her. I want to hold her one last time, kiss her one last time, make love to her for the last time. I looked back as I headed home, I lost her.

Lolita's Point of View
I saw him today, I wonder if he still cares. I couldn't stop staring at him. Ella has told me that he's seeing someone new, I wanted to ask him about her. He's probably really happy right now. He couldn't even look at me. He didn't mean it, I told myself. I wanted him to hug me or kiss me to the point that it took away my breath. As I drove home with tears staining my cheeks, I thought... I still love him.

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Lolita's Point of View
Ella invited me over to her place to hang out with the promise Tiger wasn't going to be there. I wasn't avoiding him but the less time we spent together the better for everyone. We were both laid out on her couch watching some action movie, of course, she chose.

We were interrupted with Ella's mum yelling out "Ella can you go to the store and grab me a list of groceries?"

Ella yelled back "I'll do it later!"

Elizabeth screamed at her daughter "Ella go to the store now, I wasn't really asking you before I was telling you."

She grumbled profoundly under her breath as she pulled on her shoes grabbing her car keys. As she left I also got off the couch joining Elizabeth in the kitchen. I asked, "is there anything I can do?"

Elizabeth shook her head "no love just sit down and we can have a chat."

I nodded my head unsurely "sure Elizabeth, what do you want to talk about."

Elizabeth placed the knife on the chopping board joining me at the table. She placed her hand on mine saying "Ella told me about you and Tiger."

I nodded my head looking down at the table sadly, I asked "what did she tell you?"

Elizabeth cleared her throat before speaking "you and Tiger were in a relationship behind her back, you and him slept together and you broke up."

The tears silently ran down my cheek, I nodded my head "we weren't together but it did end before we could start. I never meant to get involved with him even though, we have known each other for a long, long time and he was my teacher but...I have always had feelings for him."

Elizabeth took me into her arms cuddling me, she asked "do you love him?"

I nodded my head whispering "more than anything, he feels the same."

Elizabeth asked, "then why aren't you with him, if you both love each other what is stopping you."

I sobbed out "everything Elizabeth. If we get caught he could go to jail, I would get expelled, he would have his teaching licence taken away. Our relationship would hurt Ella more then it already has."

Elizabeth laughed at my last point, she gently squeezed my hand "Lola do what makes you happy because at the moment you are only hurting you and Tiger."

I nodded my head saying "so much can go wrong, I could leave at the end of the year for Uni."

Elizabeth happily nodded her head saying "something tells me that Tiger would happily move with you."

I sadly shook my head "I would never ask him to come with me, I can't take him away from his family."

I watched as the tears also fell from her eyes, she said "but would you really keep him from his and your happiness?"

I shrugged my shoulders "I honestly don't even know what I am doing anymore. At the moment I am so confused and he has a girlfriend now so it doesn't matter much."

Elizabeth laughed "where did you hear that from child, that is ridiculous. That boy rarely leaves his house let alone go out and find himself someone new."

Both Elizabeth and I rushed upstairs to wash our faces and then headed downstairs in time for Ella's arrival. When she did finally come back she dropped the shopping in the kitchen then joined me on the couch.

I debated about this for a while before I did it 'I miss you' I texted Tiger.

He responded back almost immediately 'I miss you more'.

I smiled at the text, I responded by asking 'is it okay if we text?'

Tiger sent back 'I don't care if it's okay, I just miss you'

I typed out 'what's on your mind right now?'

He replied quickly 'the things I would do to you if we were together right now.'

I let out a deep heavy breath, Ella picked up on it asking "what are you doing, you have the biggest smirk on your face?"

I lied through my teeth "just saw something funny on Facebook."

She believed what I told her, she returned her attention back to the movie. I texted Tiger 'and what are those things you wish you would do with me?'

It took him a while to respond 'I wish I could have you sleeping in my arms. Hear your breathe. Feel your heartbeat. Have you kiss me. I need you falling asleep in my arms. Until then, only my dreams can provide such happiness. Goodnight beautiful Lolita. I love you so much.'

I text him back 'I love you Tigger.'