Flickering Light

3. Counting Days

It's 3:14am and here I am ,
Counting days before and back .
Days back to when I was younger and surrounded by friends.
When my summer didn't end.
Counting back to now ,
Nothings changed.
We've just been rearranged.
By life and it's tricks.
The warm sun,
Laughter in the air,
Stares and hugs we all shared.
The chit chater still remains
But work and college,
Have us chained.
The debts worry us
And stress built up.
Counting back to when
I was free to dream.
Counting to now ,
Its all been drained.
Its 3:20am now and I'm counting sheep.
Trying to find some sleep
Without taking pills.
I want the time to go back.
Back to when it was easier .
Counting days for when I smiled more.
To when I had less work
And more jokes.
With time giving up on to these depressing thoughts.
Counting back ,
I thought of when I had the same exact thoughts.
Won't let the counting get to me.
I'll make new memories.
Its 3:26am and my mind is clearer.
Tomorrow I will bring back the smiles and laughter
Of when I was counting days to get better.
I understand now what to do.
Turn that negativity into my own energy pillar.
Counting days now ahead of me
To when I will meet new friends and rest in ease.