Skater Boy

AWAKE IN NEW ARMS

I tried to move but a weight on my body was preventing me from doing so. Frustrated I open my eyes- I was slightly shocked I must say- I was straddling Harrison. His arms were holding me securely to his body as he slept. He looked so peaceful. Defiantly didn't show the age and experience he has already faced in his lifetime.

I brought my hand up to his cheek and caressed it. I couldn't help but notice the tingles that ran through my body just from the touch.

I pulled my hand away.

I couldn't face those feelings that were evidently there. Right in front of my eyes but I couldn't bring my self to grasp them again. I have faced pain that could not only shatter a heart but ruin a future. I didn't see anything out there for me anymore. There was a dark film in front of my eyes, a starless night.

There was nothing but nothing for me.

As I laid my head on his chest. I couldn't help but think about Andrew. The memories and fulfilling moments. It seemed wrong to think of him and be in another mans arms. But then again he did that to me and I wasn't dead. I didn't even get the chance to give him a second chance.

It crushed me knowing that I may have not of known the real Andrew. That maybe I was blinded by the love I had for him. That no glasses in the world could make me see it.

No. He had to die for me to realize he didn't love me and never would. That time could never change his mind. Maybe I was some stupid summer romance that he was stuck carrying all the way into winter.

But my heart protested. There was a time that he loved me. I could see it in his eyes from the start and hear it in his voice. From the way we were always drawn towards each other. How it seemed we could hardly ever leave each others sides. He was at every single gymnastics meet, birthday party, picnic, and family reunion. He was my motivation.

My Lover.

He respected the lines I had drawn for physical contact. I wanted to give him everything when the time was right. But it never came.

Not liking the way my thoughts were going I glanced down at Harrison to see he was looking right at me. I jumped slightly not expecting him to be up already. I could feel the warmness coming off him in waves. Every line and tone of his muscles through his shirt. Most importantly I could feel his heart beat. He was breathing and alive. He seemed to be the only thing holding me together.

I hated how much I lent on him to get through the days.

"Did I wake you up?"I whispered gently. He shook his head no.

His hand went up and wiped my cheek. It was then that I realized I was crying."Why are you crying?"He asked concerned. I shrugged. Not knowing how to reply- He sighed in response.

I decided to change the subject. "You look so cute when you sleep."I said with a smile.

"Oh, Ya. Laying in the arms of a dying walrus is sure comforting."He joked.

I giggled. "Heck, ya." My laughter died in my throat as his hand tightened around my waist. Gosh, it felt so good.

"Your beautiful."He said. The complement caught me off guard. I looked into his eyes to see the honesty there.

"Don't you have a girlfriend?"I said quietly, afraid my voice would crack.

"I have never dated anyone this year."

"Oh."Was my best reply.

My breathing started to get heavier. Taking in his scent and the closeness of our bodies. I stared right into his eyes unable to look away. His gaze was firm and unwavering as he looked back. I didn't know what to do. I was intoxicated by everything about him. Did I want more to happen?

He sighed and dropped his head back on the pillow. Bringing distance between our faces.

I tried not to be disappointed but I doubted I could of taken the pain the kiss would bring.

"Come on. I will make you macaroni."He said as he got out of bed and helped me to my feet.

I nodded and followed after him.

What would of happened if he didn't pull back? I couldn't seem to shake the question.

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OWWWWWW! some FEELINGS ARE STARTING TO COME UP IN THE AIR! Will THEY ACT ON IT? still STAY FRIENDS? ALICE NEEDS TO THINK ABOUT HER FEELINGS,PAST, AND POSSIBLE HER FUTURE. Will HER COMPOSED WALLS PUSH HIM AWAY OR BRING HIM IN? CAN TIME HEAL ALL WOUNDS? WHAT ABOUT STACIE AND WHAT SHE IS GOING TO DO WITH THE BABY? what WILL ALICE DO?

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