Hinamori's POV
I woke up the next day to find the first snow falling from the glass door. Quickly getting out of bed, I came running up to it to be captivated by the scenery. "Kirei," I said with awe. "The first snow has finally arrived."
Turning my body to the side, I found the heavenly guardian no where to be found. "Hitsugaya-kun...he's probably flying off somewhere on his own for a while."
With that said, I went to my wardrobe, pulled out my uniform clothes, and headed my way to the washroom to take a warm shower.
Everything went normal as usual during the school day. For me, it's a little different. my thoughts seem to always make its way to wonder about Hitsugaya-kun's whereabouts. "Where has he gone? What does he need to do? Why hasn't he came back yet?"
Just to make sure, I took the time at lunch to call out to him from the top of the roof. By that time, the snowy weather continued to fall, but at a more intense rate. There is about seven centimeters of snow on the ground. "Hitsugaya-kun! Where are you? Hitsugaya-kun!"
I called his name in the opposite direction. "Shiro-chan! Mou, it's not funny. You're not planning to sneak up on me again, aren't you?"
"Hinamori-kun, what's wrong?" a familiar voice asked.
Looking down on the ground, I found Kira and the rest of my friends from classes 2-1 and 2-3 waiting. "Kira-kun! Minna-san!" I said as I sat down on the staircase roof to jump safely onto the building's roof.
"What are you looking for Momo?" Ichigo asked.
"A lost pet or something?" Orihime added.
"If that's the case, we'll help you look for it after school," Rukia said.
"Yeah, the more the merrier," Renji agreed.
"This way, we'll find it much faster," Kira said.
"Gomen nesai minna-san, demo it's not something you can see. Out of all of you, only I can see him," I thought. "Thank you for your concern, but I can handle this myself. Daijobou, I know I will find him."
With that said, I ran back inside the school to search for him in another private place in the school grounds. "Hn, whatever she's looking for, it must be really important," Renji said.
"Yeah," Kira agreed, smiling. "I hope she finds it soon or else she's going to feel bad for the rest of the day."
"Hai..." Orihime agreed.
"We should go back inside," Ichigo said. "We can't stay here any longer as long as we're wearing these clothes."
"Good point," Renji agreed as the students went back inside the building together.
"It's still snowing..." I said as I continued looking and looking. At the end of the school day, my efforts bear fruitless. Hitsugaya-kun is nowhere to be found. I began to become very worried about him. "Where are you Hitsugaya-kun?"
That question filled my thoughts for the whole time I walked home. From time to time, I looked back and forth for any trace where the white haired boy could have went. "No luck...he's nowhere to be found."
Resting my body on my comfy bed in the bedroom, I stared at the white ceiling. "Out of all places, where could he be?"
I couldn't imagine the exact place he could be. Besides, he's a heavenly guardian. He can fly to the other side of this world if he wanted to be there and then come back in minutes. The possibilities are endless. Getting out of bed, I walked over to my study desk and sat down. "He'll come back soon enough. So there's no need to worry about him," I thought.
Deciding that I should do her homework while passing the time, I opened the top drawer to discover it inside: a letter and a white small gift box. Picking up the letter, I began to analyze it. "What is this?" I wondered. "It's addressed to me."
Curious, I opened the envelope and read the letter's contents inside.
By the time you read this letter, you probably have already found out that I am not around.
I paused. "Hitsugaya-kun wrote this," I said before I read on.
Over the last three months, we've been through quite a lot of things together. I really am glad I got the chance to meet and get to know you better. To tell you the truth, this mission really did have a deadline. I only had three months to stay with you before I had to move on and start on my next assignment. I have broken our promise and lied to you. I'm sorry. I did not want you to worry about me. Please find in your heart to forgive me.
From that moment on, I didn't know whether to get mad at him or not. I should be mad at him for lying to me like that, (He's the heavenly guardian! He can't lie!) but I soon thought of reasons why he might have done that. Why did he lie in the first place?
If I had the option, I would stay with you a little long-no, forever is a more appropriate word to describe my feelings to you. If my deadline wasn't at midnight, I would have taken the time to personally say my final words to you.
Hinamori Momo, I love you.
I winced at the words. "Shiro-chan...loves me?"
Now isn't that funny? A guardian like me is in love with a girl who hasn't lived all her years yet. I'm sorry to tell you all this in this way, but thanks for taking the time to read it. Anyway, that's all I have to say. I'll always be watching over you from above. May you find happiness in any place you go. I will never forget you.
The present I left for you is a little something I thought you'd like. Think of it as a thank you for being my friend. You worked hard, you really did.
From your heavenly guardian,
Hitsugaya Toshiro
P.S. Always smile; it suits you Bed Wetter Momo.
In a flash, I could feel an eerie silence fill the room. I slowly turned my eyes to the small gift box sitting in her drawer. Placing the letter on the desk, I then picked up the box and opened the lid to find a shining and sparkling peach pendant inside. Taking out the piece of jewelery, I held it tight against my chest. Tears began to fill my eyes and fall onto my cheeks. I felt my heart suddenly anguish in sorrow and pain. I have finally realized the truth.
Why didn't I realize it before? Why didn't I realize that the heavenly guardian had feelings for me? Why couldn't I notice my true feelings in the first place? All I ever needed was him. He's the only one who understood and cared for me the most. He is the one who is sent to watch over me in the first place; the gift from the heavens. Because I was busy focusing on confessing to Kira, he decided not to tell me his feelings as he counted the days until his departure. It turned out that the one who is suffering the most isn't me, but the heavenly guardian, Hitsugaya Toshiro. It must have been unbearable to hold back his feelings and do his job. He sacrificed his own happiness just to try to fulfill mines. "Oh Toshiro, why did you have to leave?" I asked. "You promised me that you'll stay here and be at my side."
Using my arms to wipe the tears from my eyes and cheeks, my efforts were in vain. More tears appeared and came running down my cheeks. "Please...come back."
Now that I couldn't see him anymore, I am unable to see the brightness in my future anytime soon. My happiness disappeared along with him into the dark and cloudy sky. I can't even see myself smile in the days, weeks, or even months to come. For the rest of the night, the falling snow turned into a raging and long storm.
I cried for his return.
"Shiro-chan, I-I love you too."
References
Kirei - Beautiful / So pretty
Minna - Everyone
Daijobou - It's alright
Gomen nesai - I'm sorry
