Good Enough (harry styles)

You're just a teddy bear

Chapter 4 - you're just a teddy bear

As harry dragged me into his room forcefully i could see Gemma's eyes widen in confusion. I mean i don't blame her even I don't know what the hell is going on. What have i done to harry to make him this angry. I tried to think of something i did but my mind keeps going blank. My thoughts were interrupted when Harry slammed the door to his room and let me go.

"What the hell Harry? What do you think you're doing?" I screamed at him. I don't know where all that courage was coming from but i guess i just had it with all the confusion that this boy has caused me.

"Oh so now you decide to talk? Right? Well Addilyn if you're so courageous right now why don't you explain what the hell happened back in school. Huh?" It was a screaming fight between us right now. I'm pretty sure Gemma could hear us from downstairs. Hell people in Antarctica could probably here us right now.

"What happened in school? Harry i really don't understand why you're so angry at me. What did i do to you?" I was really confused by now. What the hell was Harry talking about? I didn't even do anything to him.

"Why did you flinch when i held your wrist Addilyn? Why were your eyes red? Why do you avoid me and then lie to me? All these questions that are left unanswered are what's driving me crazy! You drive me crazy Addilyn"

Silence. That was my answer. I didn't know what to say, what to do i felt like i was trapped. I never thought anyone would figure out how miserable my life is i figured if i keep quiet people will just let me be. I guess not. Harry took a few steps towards me and the sudden movement scared me so i took a few steps backwards until my back hit the wall. Harry was now standing right in front of me and we were centimeters apart.

"Addilyn are you afraid of me?" Harry whispered in my ear.

"N-no I'm not-t" i stuttered. Damn where did all the courage from earlier go. It just seemed to disappear with harry's proximity.

"Frankly buttercup I don't believe you" he continued to whisper. His hands grabbed my hand and i was too shocked to do anything about it. Then without thinking harry started pulling up my sleeve and it was too late when i noticed what he was doing. I was afraid to look into his eyes but i know he was staring at my scars. Both new and old. I wanted to scream and push him away but I couldn't my body wouldn't listen to my mind no matter how hard i tried. I couldn't move i was mortifies that he can see what I've done to myself. What people have driven me to do.

"Why? Addilyn why would you do this to yourself?" Harry said still looking at my scars.

"Y-you don't know what it's like Harry. To feel unloved, unwanted and just plain worthless. My family doesn't want me. My sister beats me up just out of plain hatred which I don't even know why. People at school call me ugly and worthless everyday. You dont know what that does to a person. At first i tried not to believe it, i really did. But over time when you hear something that often even you start to believe it. I have nowhere that i belong in. Not at home. Not at school. It just kills me." When I'm done i feel tears streaming down my face and I don't try to hide them anymore. I feel harry's hand wiping away my tears and then his hand tilts my chin up so i could look at him. But i just can't I can't look at him. I'm so ashamed.

"Addilyn please look at me." He whispered. As he tilted my chin upwards again this time my eyes land on his eyes. Everything just seemed to stop. I could somehow feel that he cared. Maybe I'm just lying to myself. I suddenly feel lips on my wrist. It just dawned on me that we haven't moved an inch.

"H-harry what a-are you doing?" My voice was shaking.

"Im showing you just how beautiful you are regardless of what you think." He whispered. My heart was beating out of my chest. I was afraid he would start hearing it because of how I'm reacting to him. Where is the dangerous Harry that Gemma described to me? I don't know and right now I don't care. He is all i need just this moment.

"Seventeen" he murmured. I gave him a confused look because right now I don't have the strength to speak anymore. "Seventeen is the amount of cuts you have, and I won't allow for anymore Addilyn, I'll be right here if you ever needed me. Please just don't ever harm yourself again." He said as he rested his forehead against mine. All i could do was nod. "Common its been a tough and long day, you can just sleepover here because I don't want you to go back into that house again."

"Harry I can't i have to go to my house. And I don't even have any clothes to sleep in." I really wanted to stay i just needed him right now but i was just afraid that tomorrow all this would change. And I don't think that i could handle that right now.

"Addilyn here you can sleep in my shirt and you can take the bed if you want and I'll just sleep on the floor. Please just stay." He gave me one of his shirts and it smelled exactly like him. Again all i could do was nod. Harry took off his pants and shirt which only left him in his boxers. I was staring at him until he caught me looking i looked down and blushed as he just chuckled. I guess he was used to girls staring at him. Harry began to make himself comfortable on the floor when i realized i really didn't want to be alone.

"Harry could you please sleep next to me?" I whispered too embarrassed by myself.

"Sure buttercup, anything you want." He whispered back. He climbed into the bed next to me and I immediately cuddled into him because right now I didn't want to feel like I'm alone. Because right now i have Harry. "Goodnight buttercup" harry whispered as he kissed my forehead.

"Goodnight harry"

And I slept a peaceful sleep with one thing on my mind. Harry styles was just a teddy bear in disguise.
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