Cheriam ~ Never Enough

5

"Guys I'm not auditioning on Friday. I'm sorry but I just can't do it." I texted the boys in our group chat when I came home later that day.

"Why? What's happened?" Harry replied.

"I've just realised that I won't fit into the group and can't even sing in front of people so what's the point right?" I told him. That's wasn't the real reason though. I was scared to be honest. Scared of what Zayn would do if I did join and the fact that I'd be around him way more than what's necessary.

"Just think about it yeah? You might regret it if you don't audition at least." Niall replied to try and convince me.

"Sorry, but I've made up my mind." I sent them and with that I turned off my phone so I could focus on my homework without getting disturbed. I took the books out of my bag and I suddenly realized that a note fell to the ground. I must have accidentally taken it when I packed my bag in class. I picked it up and opened it up to see a little message on it and I was shocked to see who it was from. Well who I thought it was from at least.

'Meet me at the auditorium at 10:30 before the auditions tomorrow. Xo C'

'C' that must be Cheryl right? Who else could it be? Especially when it has to do with the auditions and she did have my book earlier. It just has to be her.
Why would she wanna meet me there though? And what's with the 'xo' in the note? She wouldn't write something like that to me. That's just wishful thinking. I'm wondering who it can be though if it isn't her. Should I go? I'm still not auditioning though, but I'm actually curious to see who it's from to be honest. My curiosity isn't good for me I know that, but I know I'll be thinking about it all day if I don't go. It can't harm to just go check who it is and what the person wants.

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I was standing outside the auditorium and the time was now 10:25. I wasn't sure if I should enter or not. Maybe it's one of Zayn's little tricks to get to me again. My gut feeling told me to go inside though, so I slowly opened the door and it looked completely empty so I slowly went inside. Trying to stay as quiet as possible, in case someone was around. I couldn't help myself from going onto the stage. I'm not gonna lie, I'd love to stand there and sing in front of an audience like that one day. I just wish I was more confident about myself. I was now standing in the middle of the stage, looking out to the empty chairs, trying to imagine what it would feel like to actually perform here one day.

"You like it?" I suddenly heard a familiar Geordie accent making me turn around. She was walking in from backstage and she was wearing a light pink, flowery crop top with some white, high waisted shorts. She was looking absolutely stunning.

"I.. I guess so..." I stuttered.

"You should get used to it. I know you'll get into the group after your audition." She smiled.

"I'm not auditioning..." I told her.

"What?!" She said. "You have to!" She almost shouted, shocking us both I think. She looked around a bit before continuing. "I mean, you're so talented..." She looked quite upset.

"I can't.."

"What do you mean, 'you can't'?" I felt like I could trust her for some reason so I decided to tell her the truth.

"You know why... You know what Zayn will do if I join..."

"What did he do now?" She asked and I could hear in her voice that she was angry. "Is this about what happened yesterday? I saw him hitting you." She said and looked ashamed.