Betting On A Lost Soul (PAUSED)

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finished September 4.
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    "What the fuck?! You can't just let him get away with that!" I had just told Cameron about hunter.

"It wasn't his fault" I said drowning in my thoughts.

Of course, it wasn't. It was your fault.

It's always your fault.

You led him on.

I did.. Gosh, I always do this type of shit. It wasn't Hunter's fault it was mine.

"Dani?"

I snapped my head to my left to see Cameron staring at me worried.

"You just froze there. Are you ok?"

"Yeah let's just go home please" my voice came out as a whisper.

"No Dani where is this guy?" he was starting to get irritated.

I opened my mouth to speak but he beat me to it.

"Actually answer this, why were you even here with him to begin with?!"

"I wasn't with him" I mumbled looking down, letting my guilt and shyness take over.

"Who then?"

"My friend Sean"

After a few seconds of silence I look up to see Cameron's blank expression.

"What?-" I mumbled but the cars engine roaring stopped me.

"Just be careful ok?" he said driving us back to campus.

"Ok Cameron" I left it at that, hoping the conversation wouldn't lead to another argument.

Once we got outside of campus, I basically ran out into the dormitory.

This isn't working. My thoughts are going to get me one day. I can't live like this.

Talking to Cameron about my problems won't help. It won't even happen and it never will. How does that Doctor think I'll be able to get better.

He doesn't know the shit I'm going through. I have the worst luck.

"Dani?"

I snapped my head to see Lisa staring at me with a mixture of confusion and worry.

"Hey" I smiled and waved, to make it seem less awkward.

"You seemed alittle shook up is everything alright Dani?"

"Yeah I just had a fast day" I tried my best to convince her, "My head hurts, I'm going to sleep for a bit ok?".

She gave me an unsteady look. She slowly nodded then smiled obviously not wanting to ask more, knowing I will continue to lie.

I went to my room and quickly locked the door. I took off my shirt looking at myself in the mirror. There was a slight bruising left from his strong grip.

I ran my fingers over it, not feeling much pain.

Dammit Dani, you're so stupid. You're so weak, you couldn't take this. Your actions led to this.

I slid on a white tee and black leggings. Then tied my hair in a ponytail.

I jumped once my phone started blasting. Sean's name showed on the screen.