Confessions, useless stuff, useless stuff again, etc.

I mean it

Hello~ Okay! Let's stop this now 😂😂 So um.. I don't really know how to start this but.. I'll try.. You know, many things have happened and.. yeah I wanted to talk about that a bit. I know this sounds weird.. No matter how much I try to forget something, I can't. It seems impossible and I don't know what to do. Right now, I feel helpless. Maybe talking about it can make me feel better. I don't really think I'm a good person, like.. seriously. I feel like giving up sometimes.. I can do whatever I want, but will it give me the happiness? I can do things to distract myself, but how long? I just wanna make things clear now.. I wanna say sorry to everyone I talked to, people who came to my life, and people who left. I'm saying this because, I have a dream and I can't work on it unless I get this work done. I'm sorry, again, for everything I've done and for the times I behaved rudely. Forgive me, please. Don't misunderstand me, I mean it. It has come to the point where I can't even say anything but sorry. I won't tell you to take it as a joke and forget it, no.I know that some things can't be forgotten.. I am afraid.. Really I am.. Even when I'm writing this.. And I feel bad now... I can't just act like nothing happened? I don't know what to say anymore.. It's okay if you don't want to talk to me, I'm fine with it. Just know that I'm sorry... And once again, I'm sorry for everything and please forgive me. I hope you will.

kind-louise