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ten - isabella

its 6:27, the concert starts in 33 minutes and im shitting myself with excitement.

"Me and Logan are gonna' go adventuring for a while, you losers have fun," said Blaze as him and Logan walked off into the distance. "I'm sooo excited aren't you?" I said joyfully "fuck yeah, I've been wanting to see Frank Ocean for years," Suki replied.

The minutes gradually went by and before we knew it we were already scurrying into the venue completely and entirely floored by the whole experience. Butterflies were in my stomach and I could literally feel myself about to cry. I turned to Suki and said "I'm gonna' play it cool, just gonna' be chill and relaxed and have a good time"
"Good evening everybody!" He said.
"OH MY FUCKING GOD ITS FRANK OCEAN JESUSFUCKINGCHRIST!" I screamed.
I could hear Suki beside me screaming at the top of her lungs and the room was filled with high pitched screeches. Frank Ocean was my ultimate boyfriend, he just didn't know. I've been listening to him for years and Channel Orange has been one of the timeless records I've ever heard and it was honestly a privilege to even buy his CD and seeing him here perform his latest album right in front of my eyes is something that I'll truly cherish. Its something that I'd tell my kids about, y'know? If I even have kids or can have kids, I don't know, anyways fuck kids I'm here for Frank.
The hours went by and the concert was coming to an end, my voice was so raspy and scratchy from singing at the top of my lungs and my arms ached from keeping them in the air for such a long ass time. I made little small conversations with this girl that was standing next to me, her name was Izabella. We rambled on about our undying love for Frank's music and some other things, she thought I was a boy at first but when I spoke she was caught off guard. "Where are you guys off to after this?" she asked "don't really know, we literally snuck out of our houses and drove all the way here with no plan at all," I replied sheepishly realising how stupid I sound. "You guys could stay at my apartment for tonight, I'd obviously have to meet your other friends but if they're cool with you I guess I am too haha," she said smiling "oh shit thank you," I replied. Okay, Izabella's nice, but I've known for for 2 hours and shes willing to let me crash at her apartment I'm practically a stranger. The rest of the concert went on and towards the end it slowly sunk in that I'd have to go home to shitty hell tomorrow and that this experience is over.

Me and Suki walked out of the venue and tried to look for Logan and Blaze. "Where the fuck are they," I said in desperation. Suki called them and Blaze sounded drunk as hell
"We're close by"
"Oh my god I bought drinks so we can get drunk tonight but I think I'm already drunk hahaha sorry"
"I'm really cold and my nipples are hard that's so weed"
"I mean weird"
"Weed sounds good too though" he rambled on. "Give the phone to Logan please," said Suki. After about 30 minutes of arguments and location verifying, we finally found each other.

I was looking around for Izabella but she was no where in sight. "Where are we gonna sleep? I mean we're not gonna' drive back home tonight are we," said Suki "I don't know, there was a girl that said she was willing to let us stay at her apartment, but I don't trust her, let's just camp like we did last time," I suggested, the others looked unimpressed "I'm not camping," said Logan and I feel like the others agreed. "Oh my god Juno? That you?" said Izabella running up to me "I've been looking for you everywhere," she said. "Is this the girl you're talking about" said Logan "yeah" I replied "I thought you said you don't trust her" said Logan. Izabella laughed "I'm not weird or anything, I just want to help you guys but if you have your own plans that's okay," she said. "We accept your offer," said Suki.
Well,
It was a done deal, we were already in the car on the way to her apartment and there was nothing I could do about it. I don't trust her at all.

We pulled up to a nice looking neighbourhood and she showed us the way up the stairs into her apartment building. She took us in the lift all the way to the top floor and we entered her house.
First impressions? Holy shit, she can paint. "Are these all your paintings?" asked Logan "yeah, I'm an art student" she replied "you're so good," he said staring at the paintings in awe. Blaze drunkenly stumbled around the apartment looking for a toilet "I WILL PISS ON MYSELF," shouted Blaze "will he actually?" asked Izabella "fuck yeah he will," said Logan "even if we wasn't drunk he'd still piss on himself for a laugh," I said. Izabella rushed over to Blaze and directed him to the toilet "here you go," she said. She headed back over to us "feel free to eat anything, I'm vegan so you won't find any meat in there," she said.

Blaze walked out of the toilet "feels good to have an empty uterus," he said "an empty what?" asked Suki "an empty uterus," Blaze replied. Oh my god, I think Blaze might just be the dumbest piece of shit I know, "Blaze do you know what a uterus is?" Suki asked "is it not what holds your pee," he asked. We all laughed at him "no Blaze, the uterus is a part of the vagina, I think you meant to say bladder" I said "oh shiiiit, I don't know how I passed biology to be honest, I was stoned while doing the exam" he said as he laid on the couch. Guessing that's Blaze's bed tonight, "where are we gonna' sleep?" said Logan "oh yes, I only have 2 bedrooms, 1 is mine and the other is a spare with one double bed, I don't know who wants that and also I have some space in my room too" she offered "me and Suki will share a bed, won't we Suki," said Logan putting his arm around her, Suki quickly pushed his arm off "if you act creepy or lay a finger on me I'll slit your neck and hang you upside down" she threatened "okay chill out man, wasn't gonna' touch you I was just gonna' nicely ask for head but that's obviously not happening," Logan said as they both proceeded to their room. "Guess you're with me then Juno," she said smiling,

Yep, guess I'm with you. Yay.

I followed her into her room and it was full of unfinished paintings and old dusty vinyl. "Are you gonna' sleep in those?" she asked "I was actually gonna' ask you for a shirt or something," I replied, she threw me an oversized shirt which I went in the bathroom to wear. "There's some unopened toothbrushes in the cabinet you can use those," she said from the other side of the door.

10:02pm
I walked in her room and she was just done changing "your friends are pretty cool Juno," she said as she sat across from me smoking a cigarette "yeah I guess they are," I replied "at the concert I saw you and thought you were a guy that's why I was so surprised when you started talking, I was kind of attracted to you," she admitted "oh for real? I mean its understandable why you'd think I'm a guy, I feel that way towards myself, I mean, not the attractive part, the-sometimes-I-think-I'm-a-guy part, its weird to explain" I said "its okay, I like weird" she said.

Okay, I'm a mess and I need to pour out how I'm feeling inside. I'm about to make the biggest mistake an in denial, disorientated and emotionally unstable person could ever make:

Confront their feelings.

Maybe I did more than just confront my feelings, maybe I confronted my sexual frustration too.

10:56pm
Izabella sat down beside me and started to console me and tell me everything I wanted to hear as I uncontrollably spewed out my emotions, and not going to lie, I liked it. She started getting a little touchy which I allowed until it got to a point where this wasn't a therapy session anymore. She ran her hands through my hair and went in for a kiss. I got up "this is weird" I said "I liked it when we were taking and all, but that's it." She turned off the lights "its okay, I totally understand" she said as she got into bed.

11:09pm
We slept top and tail but I couldn't get my eyes to shut. I wanted to cuddle. But it was awkward speaking to her after I shut her down like that. I assumed Izabella was asleep so I tried to fall asleep too, but I kept twisting and turning in bed. Izabella woke up "are you ok?" she asked, fuck I woke her up, I don't know if I should say I'm not which is true or I am ok which is false. "Erm, I'm fine, just a bit uncomfortable down here" I replied "we didn't have to sleep top and tail you know" she said. "But I wanted to, just to make it less weird" I said.

11:27pm

Ok so we're sleeping beside each other now, we're kind of close, a bit too close. We haven't cuddled or even talked. Her body is facing away from me and I can kinda sorta feel her bumcheek. I don't know if she's asleep though and I don't wanna' move too much just incase she wakes up. But I kinda want her to wake up. "Juno?" said Izabella "are you awake?"

12:13am
Do I say no or do I say yeah.
Wait if I say no I'm still responding.
Shit.
"Yeah" I replied. Izabella turned around and now we were face to face. We started at each other for a while and then I kissed her. I kissed her, me Juno Clara Fallon kissed Izabella whatever-the-fuck-her-surname-is.

After that kiss, it was on.

We were both making out for a solid 10 minutes with hand on boob action. And then it happened;
The USB went in to the port,
The pen went in to the lid
The basketball went in the net.
Her finger went in my vagina.
Yes ladies an gentlemen, it is happening.
And it happened all night.