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eight - 420 BLAZE IT

We've been driving for about 5 hours now with a half tank and the smell of Blaze's disgusting farts lingering in this small space and also its the 20th of the 4th.

"Stop changing the fucking track," I said violently to Blaze, "no bitch" he replied as he continued to skip song after song. I wanted to jump out the window he was driving me crazy. We had 2 hours left of the journey, we are all tired,gross and extremely sweaty and the last thing we need is someone getting shot in the head because they continued to annoy me. 

   "Fuck," said Logan, the car made a weird clanking noise as it drastically slowed down in speed. "What is it," said Suki, "no gas" he replied. Absolutely great, not only are we tired, gross and extremely sweaty; we're stuck in the middle of fucking nowhere. There was an awkward silence in the car until it was broken by Suki saying, "okay what the fuck are we doing now?" Logan pressed his face against the car window and exhaled causing the glass to fog up and Blaze took off his seat belt and reclined the seat backwards in order to take a nap. "Are you kidding, so we're just gonna' sit in the car and do nothing" I exclaimed. "We could camp, I mean, it's almost night and by the looks of it, we're stuck out here, I have a little gas left in my tank that should drive us somewhere for about 20 minutes or less" suggested Logan. "I'm not sleeping in the fucking wilderness," said Suki, "same," I said. 

   "Well, what the fuck do you have in mind? There're no other better options so we're sleeping out here tonight so can I drive now?" asked Logan angrily, "whatever" said Blaze. Logan took a detour and we ended up in a fucking foresty-type-scene. "Let's stay here" suggested Logan as he hopped out of the car. The atmosphere was quiet and serene and the wind blew a bit cold, the sky was a light pink colour with fuzzy streaks of blue clouds. We all got out of the car and decided to set up a campfire, luckily me, Blaze and Suki were smart enough to bring sleeping bags, warm jumpers, and blankets. We set our stuff on a piece of land that as a bit dry and patchy. "I brought my speakers," said Suki as she slowly sunk into her sleeping bag. The fire was going and it was a chill evening but Logan had something in mind,

"Fuck, I almost forgot," Logan jerked up and went to the drivers side of the car where he pulled out a bag of weed. He walked back over to us and I could see everyone's face light up with excitement, "happy 4/20" said Logan as he began to roll the biggest blunt I've ever seen, "pass it you retard" said Blaze as he grabbed the blunt from Logan's hands, "I think your mom knew you were gonna' become a certified cannabis consumer so she named you Blaze" said Suki, I broke into laughter "that's so true" I said as I took the blunt out of Blaze's hands, "wanna' try Suki?" I offered, she hesitated for a while, "why not" she said smiling. 

   "Let's play never have I ever" suggested Logan excitedly. I scoffed, "I don't wanna' play," I said as I stood up and excluded myself from the group. Stupid games like that always have irrelevant sexual questions and it always ends up in me questioning myself, like I always do. It's like my brain is 90% 'totally dismiss the fact that you may possibly be transgender or have gender dysphoria' and the other 10% is 'confront yourself bitch, you are a guy.' I wouldn't expect anyone to understand. My life, thoughts and myself, is literally all in shambles. "Suit yourself," said Logan. I walked over to where I set up my sleeping bag and isolated myself from the rest. "Whats up," asked Blaze as he came and sat down beside me "I don't know, I just don't wanna' play the game," I replied. "Why?" He asked, "I don't know," I said again "are you gonna' say that for everything I ask you? Just tell me what's wrong you look so shitty and sad," 

I would tell him, but I really don't know. "It's hard to explain," I said as I started biting my lip. 

Fuck,

Am I really gonna' do this? I mean, it's Blaze he'll understand, right?

I looked up at him and saw him staring at me with anticipation, "are you ok Juno?" he asked. "I-I-I'm fine," I lied. He didn't believe me. He stood up and stretched out his hand to pull me up, "Let's take a walk," he said.

at this point, it was obvious blaze knew what i was going to confess

"You can say whatever you want to say to me Juno, I'll understand," he said. 

This was it.

"I think I'm-I think...I think..I'm," I stuttered as my eyes started welling up with tears,

"I think I'm a boy," I admitted. At this point, tears were gushing down my face and I looked like a tomato that had been dunked in water. I looked to see Blaze's reaction, he was smiling like a fucking idiot. "Say something!" I screamed. "I knew," he replied. "Ugh, no you didn't stop lying," I said. "No really, I always knew, when you snuck into my room and stole my clothes, when you cut your hair, when you went through this weird phase of dating girls, on multiple occasions you indirectly told me you were transgender, see? I always knew, I was just waiting for you to tell me," he said smiling. I ran and hugged him tightly, "I love you," I murmured "yeah yeah, love you too," he replied.

Damn, that felt good. So I guess this is it? I'm a guy? I don't know I'm still kind of confused. "Are you gonna tell the others?" asked Blaze, "fuuuuck no," I replied "I'll wait, I'll wait a long while." We both started walking back to the others, "I'm proud of you Juno," said Blaze.