Behind The Camera |Phan

Present Day

Dan's pov

"And thats what brought me to today. Writing a book with phil, denying any feelings we had/have for each other to the world, even to ourselves. We told each other that we would no longer be so touchy or friendly in videos like before, and avoid questions of phan. To this day, i still have to reply to tweets denying the video, using phil's "brilliant" plan. He went through hell and back just to get all the copies of the video taken down, and we sent out so many tweets revealing the "joke". Nowadays, if you mention the video, you'll either get harrassed by our viewers, or they'll promote "phan". I dont blame them.. even I ship phan. No. NO. Wait. Aha, you see, what i meant to say was. Uhm.. we would be a nice looking couple! Yes. Brilliant. But no, I'm not gay. Aha, I like girls.." I babble on nervously to the women

"So you didn't agree to the plan? Were you wanting to be public about your... situation with phil?" The counselor says

"No, y-yes I agreed. Phil and I are just friends" I say unsure of myself

"Then why are you here?"

"I dont know?" I say like im asking myself "arent you supposed to make me feel better?!"

"Why? Are you unhappy? Why do you think you came here Daniel?" She says calmly

"Because?! Obviously I want to be with phil!" I look around the room, realising what had spilled out of my mouth

The Councelor Lady just smiled

"O-okay then...... Uh Goodbye" I say awkwardly before standing up and leaving.

What was that? I thought if i pushed away any feelings for Phil, i could easily forget about what we had.. but what's going on with me.. Why did I go to a councelor? Why did I tell her that I want to be with phil?

I then realised I was about to walk into a pole, and pulled myself out of my thought and headed towards our flat

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There, I saw phil lounging on the couch with his laptop.

"Hey" he says smiling

"Uh hi phil" I say say awkwardly

"Did you still want to film that sims episode?" He says curiously

"Y-yeah, just give me a second. You can go set up if you want" I say and walk towards the bathroom

What are you doing Dan. You've hidden your feelings for 4 years. You cant slip up now.

I pace back and forth a few times trying to focus myself before joining phil.

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During the video I couldn't focus.

I just kept staring at phil.

Thinking about how i feel.

Do I really still love him?

I mean, ofcourse ive always loved phil, but.. Do I love him that way? Like I did before?

Do I tell him?

No.. I cant.

Does he Still Love me?

"Dan??" I hear phil say, causing me to jump a bit

"O-oh what?" I say confused

"Arent you going to say bye?" He says frowning

His frown is so adorable..

"Oh right, of course. Bye guys!" I say waving at the camera

Phil turns off the camera and turns to me

"Everything alright? You were zoning out the whole video." He says worriedly

"Phil?" I say looking up at him

"Yes?"

"Do you remember the valentines day video?"

"Its not like I could forget, we constantly get reminded" he says

"No, not when it got leaked. When it was just you and I who knew about it" I say looking down

"What about it?" He asks

"Do you still feel the way you did?" I ask him this time looking up at him

"Dan.." he says quietly

"Phil, lately I've been thinking about it a lot. I miss those days. I miss all the memories, the kisses, the dates, the cuddles... the other times..." I say trailing off.

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Phils pov

"Do you still feel that way phil?" Dan says asking me again.

"Dan.. we shouldnt talk about this" I say and he gets up and walks toward his room.

I follow him.

"Okay, apparently not. Great." He says to himself as he begins to shut his door

"Dan wait.." I say sadly

"I think I've waited long enough, dont you?" He says, this time completely shutting his door.

Just then i recieve a tweet asking if phan is real

[No,]

Yes

[No, Dan and I are just friends]

I love him

I sigh and press send

Then I get an idea.

I run to my room and quickly set up the camera

Dan, you deserve an answer

I click record.

"Awrrf" I say shyly

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