A Book for You

Who is she?

She already knows who am I talking to because I only have space in my mind and heart for her. But many of you might not know who am I talking about. Well I can honestly say that she has made an great impact in my life in the little time we've been together but I'm doing everything I can to make everyday special for her.

It was all dark and blurry before she came into my life. I was never really appreciated anywhere. Not at the places I've worked, not with friends, not in past relationships and not even in my own home. I even started to get used to it. I didn't had any motivations as well. I would do things that would only benefit me and screw everyone around me. I started not to care of my actions and sometimes be a bit reckless. I would simply do and fuck anyone off. 

It's was like that for a long time after my last relationship went to shit in a matter of hours. No one cared for me, why should why care for myself or for everyone else? I fuck around, fuck people up and didn't even care. Then everything changed a few months ago.

This girl I met YEARS ago gave me her phone number. It took sometime to grow the courage and balls to send her just one text message but I never knew that this girl I met so many years ago would be so important to me in life now. 

She became a part of me that I just don't want to let go, ever. She has shown be to care again and to smile, something that no one has ever done in a long time. She makes me happy, loved and wanted. When I feel down in the dump, she's always there to help me and make me smile even if I don't want to. She's the greatest human being I've ever met and I want to know even more about her. So yeah, maybe I don't care for the world anymore, believe me that developed a long time ago, but I care for her. I care for her well being and emotional state. If she is happy then I'm happy. If she's sad then I'm sad. If someone hurts her emotionally or physically, I won't give them a fight, I'll give them a war.

She's my only friend. My best friend. My soul mate. I only talk to her all day because she's the only real friend I got left. She's the only one I can trust and I trust my heart in her hands and I trust that she'll fix it and make it hers. I have put all my trust and love on her. She's my everything. She's my favorite song. She's my girlfriend. She's my world.

If you hurt her then I will hurt you back. I won't kill you because death is just an escape. No, I'll make sure to make you suffer emotionally and physically. If you make her happy and be her friend then that's fine with me, but know your boundaries with her and don't you dare cross the line or else. If you ask me what's her name then I'll just answer "It's for me to know and you never find out". Maybe one day I'll say who she is. For now, she knows I write to her here and I make her very happy and that's alright with me.

I love you, baby doll~