Maybe it's best if I let go...

July 5 2015

Dear diary,
Feliciano and his brother came over today. Romano and I, even though he doesn't say it, are kinda friends. We both love our little brothers a whole lot, and even though Lovino doesn't like Ludwig, he wants to help get them together! I had to promise him that we would both get cuddle buddies too.(that's what I like to call girlfriends/boyfriends) Of course Feli tried to listen in but Romano knows him well. Sometimes they remind me of when West was little. Except, West was way more shy, than he is now. But even then, he turned out awesome! So big brothers must do something right. Even if all that changes is opposite of what was supposed to happen.(you know, Romano wanting a tough brother but instead got a loving soft one) Although I think that the date worked, and not to mention the fact Romano made the two of them sit together. Playing Cupid is so much fun! Keseseseses!

Oh! I almost forgot, lately I've been having nightmare's, Ludwig hasn't noticed them yet, thankfully. As much as I would appreciate Ludwig's help, I want to deal with this on my own. The nightmares usually consist of me either:

A) Slowly growing a flower crown of cornflowers and then disappearing in front of Getmany after it was done.

Or

B) Telling Hungary I love her, and her saying she would love me if it weren't for the fact that my eyes are an unnatural colour.

Both hurt as equally bad, I don't want to leave West or be rejected because of my eyes. Last night I had the disappearing dream, I was so freaked out I had to call Hungary. She said that everything would be okay and to go to her house on Monday (today's Friday). I don't know why she wants me there but whatever the reason I'm going because I want to.

- Gilbert

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