Transgender (Rilaya) {COMPLETED}

Chapter 17

A/N: Thank you SO much for the 10k reads so far on this book. So I'll double update today!

                  

Riley's POV

I honestly felt like a complete idiot after that night. I don't know what happened, but in that moment, I wanted to kiss him more than anyone in the world. Riley, you need to remember you have Lucas. And you're happy, right? I just don't know anymore, it's like all these thoughts have come rushing to my head. Sometimes I don't even feel safe around Lucas, but I know Mason would be gentle and never make me feel afraid. 

"How was seeing Mason?" Isadora asked as she plopped onto her bed. I grabbed my phone from my back pocket and showed the selfie that him and I managed to grab before it was awkward. "Woah. His eyes are the only way I could recognize. Mason was always a beautiful girl, biologically, still a handsome guy."

"He is, and he's still sweet." My face tinted a light shade of pink. "Hey, do you think I can stay here tonight, I think I left my dorm keys at home an— "

"Riley." She stopped me, "You've done this countless times at night, don't lie to me. Of course you can stay, is it because of Lucas?

Embarrassed, I replied "Him and his friends were going to some fraternity party tonight and I know he's probably overly intoxicated right now and he's ten times scarier when he's drunk."

"Riley, I care about you so much, what has he done to you?" I've never saw such concern in someone's facial expression, except Mason's.

"He's hit me before. Like that one time I told you I got that black eye from a box falling out of my closet and the corner catching my eye? Nope, that was from Lucas. He doesn't do it often; he's probably hit me 9 different times since my sophomore year. I guess he just gets upset. Well, I know he gets kind of mad when I won't have sex with him." Everything came spilling out, I couldn't even look her in the eye at this point.

"Riley that is not okay!" she hit her hand off her desk. The quick action caused me to flinch, reminding me of how Lucas gets when he gets ready to hit me. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to startle you."

"It's fine. And I don't blame him, he loves me and he wants all of me but I'm just not ready to give myself to him." I put my head back down. I'm such a fool.

"You have no right to take up for him. What he is doing is wrong, it's not love. If he loved you, he'd never lay a hand on you. You need to get away from him." She began to babble, "Rape..."

"Huh" I shot up.

"Riley, has he raped you? Or attempted to?" her anger went to pure sadness.

"I'm really tired." I said avoiding the question, "I'm going to go get some sleep. Thanks for letting me stay."

I got into Isadora's bed and moved closest to the wall; she always like sleeping on the edge. I turned and faced the wall, letting the tears began to fall. Maybe I do need to get away from him.