Disordered words

Part 1

1~ Loneliness, P.M

I close my eyes

And contemplate;

What a clichéd thing to say!

I feel alone

Despite people

And the way they fill

The city around me –

I cannot escape their watching eyes

No matter how hard I try;

Loneliness is a state of mind.

2~ Flickers, P.M

This life

Flickers all about

Like this lighter

I once held in my

Shaky, guilty hands.

This life

Flickers through the clouds

Watch as you fly through them.

You close your eyes to sleep

And the night turns away from you.

This life

Goes by quick.

Study, jobs, marriage –

You can't monitor it,

Like everything else

It will leave you.

This life

Just a lonely flicker

A heartbeat in time

Our veins suffer

But we still breathe.

3~ We all feel it, P.M

Have I gone mad?

Is this insanity?

Maybe;

But all I ever did

Was stop pretending to be happy

Stop pretending that everything was okay

It's hard to lie to yourself

Every single waking day.

We try to silence these feelings

To paint out the words

Forming on the flesh of the tongue

Of lonely souls and outcasts.

Trying to hide that feeling

We all feel it

We all feel it

Insanity seems beautiful

When it's not common

Not incredible

When you meet the others

Who whisper to you

In dark alleyways

And in the dreams

We all feel it.

4~ Alight, P.M

My mind is a match

Eternally close

To setting alight

My pale uneven body.