Random Thoughts Of Another Person

Shadows and the dark

When you look into the dark or the darkness of something, what exactly do you see?
When I look, my mind seems to create the worst possible scene, especially if im surrounded by the dark.Maybe its because I cant see, or maybe its because Im scared of the unknown, but the fear I have when Im consumed into the darkness is nerve racking.My eyes tend to dart around the room, franticlly looking for something, anything to identify.And I do usually find something.Its usually a wall, or a peice of furniture, but when I do find it, my mind warps it and I suddenly see something else.The can of soup thats in the corner of my room begins to warp into something else as I look at it for too long.My mind tells me that its a bomb, that its a peice of someones arm, then suddenly its a camera or an unknown life force that has come to kill me.Its always something out of dimension, but the more I tell myself that im wrong, the more curious I become.After staring at the object (the soup can) I get paranoid and I tend to look at other things, like the floor.The floor was a bad idea.Floors, to speak, are the worst.Objects arent so bad because its a thing, but the floor, thats another level of threat.Theres always shadows darting by and its not that bad...Until your ears pick up any noise, like a crack or a click, or anything.The ground is just something you want to get away from.Its now a route for the things to get to you.
By now, you can see how dilusional I am when It comes to the dark.Its not even a good dillusion either, its always something that makes me feel threatened, or paranoid.Anyway, I only feel paranoid when Im alone, which happens a lot, but the situation usually turns around when Im with a friend. I cant say that I immediately am not scared of what lurks in the dark, but I can say that I supress my feelings and turn towards the urge to protect my friends.When im alone, Im scared because the thought of dying to something I dont even know and no one knowing scares me, but when im with someone, dying doesnt sound that bad, because hey, at least I can protect those that I care about.It sounds weird, but thats my instinct.
And now that I put it into words, it sounds really...just...not right.Anyway, I dont feel like I fully expressed how I feel about the dark, but seeing that everyone tends to be afraid of it, I think you know how I feel.Not to get the darkness of a room confused with the darkness of a forest.Theres a difference...