I guess I really did like Ben. His dimples & his green eyes. I hadn't known him long but I just couldn't keep him out of my mind. However weeks went by & I never really saw Ben. A week after our "date" pr whatever it was at the park he didn't talk to me then he just left. It's three months later in December on our last day of school before break. I walk down the hall past the office & see Ben in the office. I am shocked. He looks over & sees me. Minutes later he approaches me.
"Hi." He said.
"Hi, where have you been?" I said sounding concerned.
" My mom pulled me out for awhile." He replied looking at the floor.
"But, but why?" I wondered.
" Judy, I feel like I can really trust you. I would have texted you but they took my phone even though i'm practically an adult." He said.
"I feel like I can trust you too, even though we've barely talked." I responded.
"When I was fourteen I started having really bad anxiety attacks. They went away when I was seventeen, they came back the day we went out to the park. I was admitted to the hospital because my anxiety got so bad I tried to kill myself & I had to go to concilling & stuff. But I feel better now." Ben said letting out a sigh.
"Ben, I wish we could have talked, I know how it must be for you. You can tell me anything. Anything." I said.
I saw a few tears go down Bens face, he grabbed me in a hug for a long while.
" I'm so glad I have you as a friend Jude" Ben said & friendly-ly kissed my forehead.
" Me too." I said & smiled.
" Hey I just realized, I called you Jude.. & that's a Beatles song" Ben said laughing to himself.
I laughed & we went to walk around outside after he & his mother where done speaking. We sat on a bench out on the lawn, found it to chilly then went inside. We sat in my room & decided to watch a movie. There was enough space between us so it wouldn't be awkward. Half way into the movie Ben motioned for me to sit closer to him. I rested my head on his shoulder & we continued watching the movie. Later that night at around 2am the light came on, it was Naomi.
"Oooo lala" She said & threw her purse onto her bed. " Are you guys going to the New Years party next week?"
" I don't know." I said & looked back at the movie.
" You can bring Ben with you." She said giggling & teasing at me.
Ben just smiled. I didn't know if he was ready for joking & all that. He'd been through alot & I didn't wanna make him upset.
At around four in the morning, Ben got up to go to his dorm.
"Thank you for this, really the simplest things right now are really making me feel better." Ben said as he opened the door.
" No problem, just call me if you need me ok?" I said.
" I promise, thank you. " He said & hugged me tightly.
" I laughed into his jacket, I could smell his faint cologne. I looked up at him & smiled. He pulled me in closer, so I was closer to his face. Before anything happened we heard a Guard yelling at us for being up so late & all that crap. Ben walked away down the hall to his dorm. I closed my door & couldn't help but blush.