Sitting here in this room.
Surrounded by nothing but blank walls.
Walls that know more about me than anybody else.
I'm mentally drained..
I can't allow another thought to enter my mind.
It won't be long for me to allow these thoughts to escape from me.
Such a cold world not sure who would be listening, but at times when I speak seems as if no one hears me.
So I hide from the world, burying myself in my own self pity.
Hoping that one day someone would understand me.
I don't want to leave this place..
This room..These walls..These thoughts..this pain.. this shame..and the list goes on and on.
I've become so use to the pain that consumes me inside.
That I'm not 100% sure if in this life there is anything different.
Listen to me;
Why must I continue to feed myself these lies?. Silly me to believe that this is how I should be. I can't allow these thoughts and pain to take over me.
I have to come up with a plan.
Where do I begin?
Help me escape my mind!
Listen to these thoughts.
You would never amount to anything!
You are not worthy!
No one loves you!
This pain you will feel forever!
No one will accept you for who you are! Depression will take over you!
Mommy and daddy has abandoned you and will never return!
Your friends have betrayed you, you stand alone!
You are not worthy to be forgiven for all your mistakes!
As I sit here tears of frustration fill my eyes I want to scream!
I want to be set free.
This pain and thoughts don't belong to me.
To be continued...
