Starstruck

hey, what's up, hello

     Well, hello. It's been a year since I've uploaded a new chapter of Starstruck and I know what you're thinking "This isn't a new chapter of Starstruck." So, obviously things didn't go to plan. And unfortunately the plan continues to change (so stick around aka pls read this or at least read the end marked with the asterisks **). And I'm lowkey trying to make this apology/author's note/whatever this is sound somewhat competent and smart, but at the same time I want it to sound like a casual conversation as friends bc you're all my friends I think. So, it's going to have run on sentences and maybe a few made up words, but what I come up with in my head I'm probably just gonna type that out. So, welcome to my thoughts (sorry if it gets confusing bc it's going to have a ton of parentheses and 'sos' and 'ands', sorry if it sounds weird and rant-y --it's probably going to sound rant-y, sorry).

     I guess we will start off with a "what have I been doing this past year". This past year was my senior year of high school. Sounds easy enough, it's senior year (shrug emoji) right? But with senior year comes college apps and scholarship apps and AP classes and club obligations (lol not really obligations, I choose to do them bc that's what you do when you love something and. . . we'll get back to this). All this stuff really hits during first semester (fun fact: November hasn't been a fun month in a while) and I lost motivation. And I've been losing motivation in a lot of things (which I won't really go into detail about). But what I'm getting to is that I lost motivation in something that I really love doing (which is this writing stuff btw just in case you didn't get that). I've been trying to get that drive to keep on doing things back and it's coming along, I guess.

     In addition to that, I've kinda realized that Starstruck sucks. There's just a ton of factual errors and grammar mistakes and characterization things that could be a lot better. Starstruck was just a wee little thought in my mind around 2012/2013 when I was still writing From Nerd to Jerk. I tend to live in my thoughts so I constantly have story ideas running around (tbh I have a new one now and a few short story ideas). So, when this story was created I was still in a middle school mindset. I didn't have any worldly experience or writing expertise (but it's not like I needed it lol it's wattpad guys there's a lot of bad stuff here *frog* *tea*). This immaturity and lack of experience showed in various forms in From Nerd to Jerk and in Starstruck. I can go on about the things I want to change about these books but I won't (for now). Now that I am slightly more educated about things, I want my stuff to be good. I want to be proud of my work. The idea that it is based on is a good idea (I'll give myself that) and I am incredibly thankful and proud of Starstruck's popularity and success, which has allowed me to work with Wattpad on some things (like Dumbstruck) and reach out to all of you people with my work.

     So, now we've reached the ~point~

     I want to write something that I am truly proud of (like Short Skirts, I'm really proud of that one bc that's some good stuff slightly problematic but it good). And in order to write something that I am proud of I have to start over. And that means I'm rewriting Starstruck. And so now you're probably thinking "We're gonna have to wait another year(s) for this chick to write something" and you're probably right. I'm going off to university soon and I'm gonna be doing more adult stuff (not like scandy adult stuff-like taxes adult stuff). I'm trying to figure out how to make sure I don't lose more friendships and create new ones (I'm not a good talker btw, and I'm really good at losing friends, writing your thoughts is a lot easier than talking your thoughts). 

     Yeah, it's going to take a (long) while, but I'm sure the end result will be better. Starstruck will be better. There will be a few changes to the story (lol debating if Nima should actually be a girl probably some name changes) and I'm hoping that the story will flow better and the characters will be more in depth and interesting. I want to make sure the whole thing is planned out. Quality over quantity. And yeah, I'm rewriting this because I want this to be good (for me mostly but for y'all also). So, hopefully maybe some of you will stick around, but if not, I understand. I know a lot of people are forgetting what happens in the story, so maybe this will be good for everyone? I don't really get anything out of this writing stuff (atm) so it often gets pushed back on my to do list, but it's something that I love doing (told you we'll get back to this), so I've been working on getting back to doing things I love because I feel like I haven't been enjoying the things I love (and I should be enjoying them so I'm working on it).

     So, I am truly sorry for making every single one of you anticipate a new chapter. I am sorry for saying that I'd update only to push it back. I am sorry for not writing this earlier and making you wait only to be met with this author's note/apology/thing.

     And I guess that's it for now. The rough draft/original Starstruck that is up now will stay up, I won't be deleting it (mainly bc I'm a slut for reads/votes/comments, I haven't transcended that far yet). And I'm debating if I should upload chapter by chapter or finish Starstruck 2.0 and then upload them (probably finish bc I think that'd be better. Longer but better. That's what she said).

**Here's the rundown for the homies who don't have time to read the thing

I am very sorry

Starstruck is being rewritten so it is technically on hold indefinitely

Should I upload chapter by chapter or finish Starstruck 2.0 and then upload?

Uh, I think that's it, everything else was probably me talking about my feelings or something

Extra comments and stuff from me bc why not get to know me more

If you leave a comment could you also put some song recommendations (I personally like indie, pop, rnb, bands, hip hop, alternative music so if you have music pls share) (some people that I enjoy are Sara Bareilles, Chance the Rapper, COIN, Troye Sivan, Bryson Tiller, Jeremy Zucker, Sir Sly, Timeflies, Panic! At the Disco, Blackbear, Jon Bellion, & Travis Garland - like it's a mess)

I like taking photos bc I'm a sentimental hoarder (and a irl lowkey hoarder) so my vsco is pretty poppin' (lol it's all iphone photography stuff so it's not that poppin')

I also like puns so if you have puns you can include them in your comment if you decide to comment (fun fact: most of the captions of my pics on vsco are puns)

I'm playing pokemon go (team instinct btw) and I kinda don't know what I'm doing (also throwback to the pikachu background, if you know what I'm talking about u probs an og)

Also if you would like to donate to the American Cancer Society bc I'm doing Relay For Life again direct message me (my goal is only $50 lol)

Lol how many 'sos' and 'ands' do you think are in this

Yeah idk what else you wanna know but you can always ask them in the comments section so if you have any questions about Starstruck 2.0 or other things leave them down there and I will probably reply bc I have no life and talking to real people is hard

     Once again, I am very sorry for the delay and I am very sorry for the newer delay. (also if you made it this far add #itsbeen84years to your comment if you're commenting) Thank you all for staying this long and for all of your support. I wouldn't be here without you (well maybe I would be here but like a different type of here) <3 See ya soon. (might be some short stories popping up every once in a while who knows) <3      7/15/16

**EDIT more chapters will be posted :)

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