Beside You

chapter three: You Look So Perfect Standing There

I watch him as he sleeps he looked peaceful and he was so, so sexy I mean damn I knew he was attractive and everything but now? There wasn't any questions as he just laid there with a bed head and breathing heavy fast asleep. As I watch him I almost forget that I am laying with him in the bed... oh crap... I think back to the night before ["We shouldn't..." "Give me a good reason not to and we won't."] I remember the touching, the kissing, feeling, the whispers both of us shared and the- okay snap out of it! All of that explains the soreness and everything but I just slept with Jensen Ackles... this isn't going to end well... I roll over and out of the bed to start quickly putting my clothes back on but before I could even get my jeans on I heard movement in the bed, I turn to see Jensen stretching then look right at me with them sleepy green eyes and says in a husky morning voice "Hey good morning... what are you doing?" I look down at the floor looking for my shoes even though I only have my jeans and black lace bra on "I'm getting ready to head out." He sits up and looks at the clock "It's only a little after 8:00." "Yeah well I like to get an early start that's all." Jensen watches me walk around the room "I think I threw your shirt that way." As he points to the left of the room I nod walking over to the other side of the room "Got it thanks" as I look for it Jensen goes on "is this about last night because we can talk about that." I throw my shirt on "What's there to talk about? It was just a crazy... stupid... spur of the moment hook up- Oh God my mother was right." I put my head in my hands shaking my head I hear Jensen in the bed guessing he was about to get up so I look up at him "No, no it's fine, I'm fine I just need to um go get ready I have a busy day today." Jensen watches me with confusion on his face "Where are you going?" I look away "To go get ready duh all my stuff is up in the other room... listen I am sorry about last night it was fun and amazing for me but right now I really need to go" he goes to say something else as I walk to the door but I stop him by saying "Good bye Jensen."

I run back up to the room and knock in the door hoping one of the boys was there and lucky I was right, Luke opens the door with an extreme bed head and sleepy blue eyes "Rachel hey." He pulls me into the room hugging me "I'm so sorry about your cousin." I smile into the hug "Thanks Luke... but I'm okay I'm just ready to get the day started." Luke pulls away and walks over to the bathroom "Okay well I'm going to take a shower, the others are down stairs with a few fans but I wanted to wait for you to make sure you were okay and plus I kind of had a hangover." I laugh at him "Luke the light weight...." I look though the bag that was in the room for another pair of underwear since I kind of left mine downstairs "Shit... Luke can I ask you a favor?" "Sure what's wrong?" I look over at him "My other bag in the boys other room has like my underwear and everything and I really don't feel like trying to get ahold of them to get in so can I just barrow some of yours?" Luke chuckles "Yeah sure just grab some out of my bag, who knows you might actually have some in there. You can also wear some of my jeans or shirts if you want to" I roll my eyes "I wouldn't be surprised and thank you Luke."

We both finished getting ready for the day I put on one of Luke's black baseball shirts with the stars going down the arms, a pair of his jeans and just rolled the bottom up some so I wouldn't step on them. We were also talking here and there about the next concerts "You know maybe after this one we can take a break." I look up at him "Do what?" he looks around "Well you need a break you've needed one for some time now and you really just seem out of your head right now." I nod "Luke you know we can't just take a break from our fans... they need us and we need them." Luke nods then looks at the clock "Oh we need to meet everyone at the dinner at 10:00." Just then I remember the breakfast plans... "Oh shit..." Luke looks at me "What's wrong?" I shake my head "Nothing, hey um I thought they were meeting us here." Luke walks over putting his shoes on "They were but Calum talked to Jared down stairs and decided just to meet at the place... you okay you just got really pale?" I look around nodding "Yeah ah um yeah I'm fine well let's go we don't need to be late." We walk over to the door as Luke opens it for me then walking out wrapping an arm around my waist, now to anyone we could pass as a couple easily with the way we act around each other but it doesn't mean anything he is my best friend and has been ever since I started the band. He opens doors for me, walks with his arm around my waist or over my shoulder, we don't know person space at least not in this band, I've even had to share a bed with Luke but then again I have with almost all the boys if a hotel was low on rooms but never in like the way I did with... Jensen... the boys knew I'd kill them if they ever tried anything on me but never the less it was a great feeling to have the boys by my side.