jar

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i was leaving today. no one can stop me. not even him. i only told my mom where i was going. i made her promise not to tell anyone if they asked. i didn't want to deal with the pain anymore. i didn't want to pretend to be okay and smile as if nothing was wrong. i wanted to be happy. genuinely happy. i didn't want to fake it anymore. i really wanted to fall in love again and make new memories maybe even forget about jimin. but he was my first love there was no way i would forget about all the memories i had with him. this feeling was probably one sided as i was pathetic enough to believe jimin still loved me. it was the jar that made me believe he did. it was weird to think his lips touched someone else's now i'm wondering where his hands touched , where someone else besides me touched him , if he actually loved hoseok instead of me , and if he really did love me in the first place. he probably didn't what am i even thinking? well i guess i won't have to worry about him as much now. he's happier without me. he could finally be happy with hoseok. its what he wanted , right?

jimin's pov

i missed yoongi. i missed his kisses , his cuddles , his everything. he misunderstood. i was trying to clean the mess that yoongi and i's apartment had turned into since he has been gone 24/7. hoseok came over to help me as the good friend he is but as we were cleaning hoseok had confessed that he liked me. i obviously didn't know how to reply i just stood there. he kept getting closer and closer. i walked backwards until i fell on my bed. he kissed me but i didn't kiss him. yoongi was so convinced i did. when he ran i tried calling but each time it went to voice mail , when i tried to go to the studio seokjin or namjoon would not let me in , i wanted to explain to yoongi what actually happened. i loved him not hoseok. i love yoongi with every part of my body. when i went to see him i came with hoseok so he could back up the story but i guess yoongi didn't take it well and stormed out. i'm sorry yoongi i love you please come back.

yoongi's pov

new york here i come.