Girl Crush

12: The End

I knew it was a lot to hope for. I knew it was a long shot. I kept my hopes down about as far as they would go; I expected the worst. So why do I feel so disappointed?

There must be a bright side somewhere. Bright side, bright side, bright side... Well, this has been a learning experience.

I'm not sure what else to call it other than "a complete and utter disaster."

It could be worse. I could have seen her and been brutally rejected. I could have been outed by her. I could have been teleported to the moon without a space helmet and then asphyxiated and boiled to death. There are lots of ways it could be worse.

But the fact is that this girl was something special and I missed out on properly meeting her. She was the first girl I liked as anything other than a friend, and to date she remains my most intense crush (which isn't saying much). I'm not sure if I'll ever meet someone who makes me feel the way she did.

Maybe I'll see her again someday. That's what I keep telling myself, anyway. Lying to myself is beginning to lose its effectiveness, especially when evidence of the lie stares at me from the face of every person I see who isn't her.

There's not exactly anything else I can do. What's done is done, what's over is over, and the part of my life she inhabited is over.

A/N
So. This is the end.

I'd like to thank all of you who came on this journey with me and it really means a lot that you found my (kinda cringe-worthy) story worth reading.

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