But Your My Drug

Chapter three

Waking up this morning I had puffy eyes and a tear stained face. I cried last night because of the life I live. It's not easy being me and having to deal with memories and flashbacks about times that's happened in my past that's harmed me. Everyday I'm reminded of the horrible things that man did to me and it's sad.
I push everything to the back of my head and move on with my morning. I hide my redness of my eyes by adding eye drops and hide my bags by adding blending makeup on my face. I get dressed in a simple outfit then head out to leave.
I don't know why but I start to think about it again. The burning hatred I have for that man is indescribable. My anger is always toward him. No one knows how bad he's treated me except for her. She knew and never stopped it. She watched him do the things he's done to me. While I cried out to her to help me from the pain the hurt the betrayal she just looked at me with those once loving eyes and showed me a face of disgust. I was so distraught and abandoned. I had no one.
He would tell me good girls get to eat. If I was good I'd eat but if I didn't ooh the hell I had to pay. He'd still do what he did to me if I was good but I wouldn't be able to eat and I'd get the beat down of a life time.
Those were the worst times of my life. I never told anyone through, not even my aunt. If she found out what happened to me who knows what will happen, she's just unpredictable.
I arrived at school and made my way to Myesha. Once I got to her I dragged her to the nearest bathroom.
"Bitch you better have a good ass reason for doing some shit like that," i let go of her locked the bathroom door and checked the stalls to make sure no one was here with us.  When I realized no one was here I started talking.
"Ok so you know how I've been acting weird so umm I kissed someone who wasn't Chris and when I promised Chris that I wouldn't do that again I did and Chris almost slept with bumps and that guy that I kissed happened to be Jayceon who I told never to have anything to do with me so I can save me and Chris's relationship," by the time I was done saying all that to fast I looked up to see Myesha with her eyes open." Well damn you couldn't tell me this from jump. Like shit this some juicy shit, hold up what ya aunt say. Wait never mind I know she was probably like yaaasssss girl then gave u some advice."
Her and my aunt are to much I tell you but I love them." I really don't know what to do. I love Chris but when I'm around Jayceon that love disappears and my body is taking into Jayceon's compelling spell." I really didn't know what to do either. It's like every time I'm around him my body gets so fired up and it's crazy because Chris never made me feel that way.

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